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ahh. so things have been so crazy the past few weeks. im just trying to get my head together now. but, ive been alright and strong. me and john are working things out, yes im aware he made a mistake with altoonas most manly fucking fat slut there is. but it is in the past. and i am trying to get past it, its just so hard as of right now. but with his actions lately, i raelly truely think hes sorry, and trying to gain my trust back, its just going to take a longggg while but im hoping all of this will make me and our relationship stronger, it def has made me stronger already and now im not so niave about anything. im just simply not putting up with shit anymore, now that i know i dont need a male in my life, and that i am stronger than i thought, i can easily let go of everything we have, if one more mistake is made. but, as of right now, me and john are awesome, and hes been really good to me. i really do see a change. thank god.
so this weekend was very different. john went out of town all weekend with terrible minds. so me and chelsea had nothing to do ha. john going away was one of my tests to see if i could start trusting him again. and by what i hear from the few poeple i trust , he was a good boy. andi believe it. he called me and talked to me most of the time we was there, so that helped alot with my worrying. me and chelsea drove up to montoursville (?) and met up with the guys at the show. the roads were alittle bad on the way there, so it was about a 3 hour drive. that was aload of fun aha. not... but the show was fun. and it was a good night after. this weekend wasnt so bad afterwards haha.
but anyways im very content with how things are in my life. everyone who is in my life right now, is all i need in my life. and i love my best friends. who have stuck through everything ive went through right now. thank you so much.
so this weekend was very different. john went out of town all weekend with terrible minds. so me and chelsea had nothing to do ha. john going away was one of my tests to see if i could start trusting him again. and by what i hear from the few poeple i trust , he was a good boy. andi believe it. he called me and talked to me most of the time we was there, so that helped alot with my worrying. me and chelsea drove up to montoursville (?) and met up with the guys at the show. the roads were alittle bad on the way there, so it was about a 3 hour drive. that was aload of fun aha. not... but the show was fun. and it was a good night after. this weekend wasnt so bad afterwards haha.
but anyways im very content with how things are in my life. everyone who is in my life right now, is all i need in my life. and i love my best friends. who have stuck through everything ive went through right now. thank you so much.