ramblings, keep on scrolling lol
i was rewatching the 'there she is!!' cartoons, and i hadn't known that amalloc had made more sequels.
if you're not familiar with these, it's basically the telling of a love story between a rabbit named 도키 (doki) and a cat named 나비 (nabi), which (i know now) is set against the backdrop of a controversy over inter-species relationships, in this case, cats and rabbits.
Click to viewor if you cbf to watch all the videos, just read the wiki article on it.
idk. seeing the rest of the steps was actually pretty jarring for me. i mean, when i last saw these, they were just any old cute flash animation.
i never noticed the pretty blatant anti-interrelationship signs, even though at the end of step 2 everyone who attended the birthday party got thrown out after doki tacklehugged nabi.
and there was even a sign on the door. still judging myself for that
watching the rest of the videos...i'm impressed on how they tackled this subject.
either way it hit a bit too close to home for me.
the past five years i've been living amongst a completely homogeneous population. there's no question who you date (if you date at all, lmao).
malayalees date other malayalees.
if you dare to be different, if you dare to be with someone who isn't (those rare north indians that come for postgrad or basically anything not mallu), you're judged, shunned, and generally ostracized.
there's no exceptions. these are the rules.
but i was raised in america. there, it's okay to be with someone different. sure, people may judge you, but for the most part, they'll leave you the fuck alone.
it's hard having that kind of mindset here in kerala. i tried conforming, i tried being with guys from here, but the minute they realized that i had even been with an american, they looked at me like i was some kind of slut.
why? because he wasn't a malayalee.
(i'm not even going to bring my sexual orientation into the equation rn because that's just opening up a whole new can of worms, lol)
and...idk. there's more i want to say but i'm notoriously bad for being able to put down what i feel in words. so i'll just stop here for now.