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2008 wasn't half bad.
I learned a lot about myself, my independence, the things I want in the end.
Christmas break was exactly what I needed. Didn't rage it at all, woke up early everyday, we even went to the beach on Christmas and I got to do some kayaking. I love being in the sun and wearing less clothing. Dressing in layers takes effort.
Patti Smith in NYC was a great birthday present.
The day after that, my parents put my dog to sleep. He was older than my little sister and it was time. Very happy I got to see him one last time.
Joel visited me in NY as well. It was nice. I do miss our life together but one day things will work themselves out if it is meant to be.
I have recently been feeling odd. I had my birthday in Brooklyn and it was okay. It made me think and of course over analyze my life. I want to stop being a kid. I do love going out and being social with the people I love, but I have always loved puppies and babies and for some unknown reason, I want both. I had been anti-baby up until Christmas break and something switched on me and I don't know why or how...but it did. I want a real home, not an apartment with roommates. I want a comfortable house that is always at a comfortable temperature. I want to be able to do laundry whenever I spill something and not have to lug it a few blocks away in the snow.
I am almost done with school so 2009 is going to GREAT! This time next year I can't even imagine what my life will be like or where I will live but I know it is going to be way better.
I miss my family and once again, my Dad asked me if I wanted to move back to Florida. It is too easy so I need to fight that and continue my struggle. I will be better and stronger in the end.
I learned a lot about myself, my independence, the things I want in the end.
Christmas break was exactly what I needed. Didn't rage it at all, woke up early everyday, we even went to the beach on Christmas and I got to do some kayaking. I love being in the sun and wearing less clothing. Dressing in layers takes effort.
Patti Smith in NYC was a great birthday present.
The day after that, my parents put my dog to sleep. He was older than my little sister and it was time. Very happy I got to see him one last time.
Joel visited me in NY as well. It was nice. I do miss our life together but one day things will work themselves out if it is meant to be.
I have recently been feeling odd. I had my birthday in Brooklyn and it was okay. It made me think and of course over analyze my life. I want to stop being a kid. I do love going out and being social with the people I love, but I have always loved puppies and babies and for some unknown reason, I want both. I had been anti-baby up until Christmas break and something switched on me and I don't know why or how...but it did. I want a real home, not an apartment with roommates. I want a comfortable house that is always at a comfortable temperature. I want to be able to do laundry whenever I spill something and not have to lug it a few blocks away in the snow.
I am almost done with school so 2009 is going to GREAT! This time next year I can't even imagine what my life will be like or where I will live but I know it is going to be way better.
I miss my family and once again, my Dad asked me if I wanted to move back to Florida. It is too easy so I need to fight that and continue my struggle. I will be better and stronger in the end.