Apr 07, 2007 14:35
Im back to normal again. It feels so good. Although I didnt post in hear that I was having a hard time and everything I was. I just got caught up in myself and the negatives parts of City Year instead of focusing on what I am doing here. Its good to be grounded again. It is so easy to get caught up with everything that is wrong when you live in a house where everyone complains about City Year, but when I think about quitting I remember all my kids and how much I would miss them.
I was getting really stressed out for a long time, and I was barely sleeping. Now I am sleeping really heavy and reluctant to get out of bed. There I see the improvement.
Life is good and I am really happy. I am meeting a family tomorrow and I am spending Easter with them. I really hope that I get to be there nanny. Some other lady has requested more information for me to be there nanny, and I am kind of waiting to see this family tomorrow. The other family has twins, but they dont sound too excited. Well I havent talked to the mother yet. Both places would require for me to move. Im sad if I move and have to give up going to the YMCA. I love that place. It is my home away from home. I took a yoga class today and it was great. Hardddd. but great. If I would have known for the back arches that we worked in teams and someone held my ankles I would have shaved my legs. I like the instructor. If you dont get the position right he will help you and just to have the little extra support in a position feels great. He lifted my shoulders towards the wall in one move and it was aaamazing. And the back arch thing was amazing. Its hard, but things are coming together. I really need to make sure that I stay positive, because there is a lot of positive things going on around me and I cant forget that. I have a tremendous network od support here that I dont want to ever loose sight of that. I have people going out of their way to help me and I love them for it.
I have Sally who is helping me about colleges. Soo who makes me laugh and is turning into a good mentor. My team. I love them. They are my rock. I wish I could tell them in some way without being so corny. I dont even care about dating right now. This year is for me to grow and expand so its hard to keep who I had in New Mexico right now, but I like who I am growing to become. Hopefully I can pick up those relationships in New Mexico again soon. Now I need to focus on me because it takes a lot of energy to grow and evolve when you are holding onto some things of the past that dont really help you now but have helped you in that past. If that made sense at all.
And I get to teach science to K-2 graders next week. I am really excited and cant wait. It really all goes back to choosing your attitude and really reflecting the negativity.