Mommy worries
Sometimes I'm pretty sure I'm nuts-o. I pretty much worry about a new/different pregnancy related thing each day. Or sometimes I switch it up each week. My current worry: that I'll feel disappointed after the baby is born. I really love being pregnant. It is so much fun feeling the baby move in my tummy. Having
birwulf feel the baby move. Lumbering around like a barge. Laughing at myself for doing the "pregnant lady shuffle". I'm afraid I'll even miss the aches and pains, because it's part of the "experience". There's something about this condition that I really love. Especially now that it's really obvious that I'm pregnant. I feel special. And once the baby is born, I'm just another lady with a kid (which is what I wanted in the first place). Except to my family/friends. So what the hell difference does it make?? SEE!! That's why I think I might be a little bit crazy =)
When I first got pregnant, and really until recently, I've been so excited about HAVING a baby that I didn't really worry about postpartum. But now, with how much I love sitting watching my belly twitch, and the whole experience of being pregnant, I worry about postpartum depression. Especially given my history with depression and anxiety. I'm hoping that since I'm being really mindful of my emotional health, when the baby is born I'll be fine. Of course I'll be stressed and tired and probably a little freaked out at the enormity of our new responsibility. But hopefully my emotional/mental state will be that of a new mom and not a complete emotional basket case.
I really hate typing this all out. It seems so mellow-dramatic and pathetic. Except it feels really good to admit how I feel. And it helps me realize how silly I can be. Thank god I married
birwulf. He is so amazingly patient and understanding about these things. And he doesn't even make fun of me (usually =)
birwulf feel the baby move. Lumbering around like a barge. Laughing at myself for doing the "pregnant lady shuffle". I'm afraid I'll even miss the aches and pains, because it's part of the "experience". There's something about this condition that I really love. Especially now that it's really obvious that I'm pregnant. I feel special. And once the baby is born, I'm just another lady with a kid (which is what I wanted in the first place). Except to my family/friends. So what the hell difference does it make?? SEE!! That's why I think I might be a little bit crazy =)
When I first got pregnant, and really until recently, I've been so excited about HAVING a baby that I didn't really worry about postpartum. But now, with how much I love sitting watching my belly twitch, and the whole experience of being pregnant, I worry about postpartum depression. Especially given my history with depression and anxiety. I'm hoping that since I'm being really mindful of my emotional health, when the baby is born I'll be fine. Of course I'll be stressed and tired and probably a little freaked out at the enormity of our new responsibility. But hopefully my emotional/mental state will be that of a new mom and not a complete emotional basket case.
I really hate typing this all out. It seems so mellow-dramatic and pathetic. Except it feels really good to admit how I feel. And it helps me realize how silly I can be. Thank god I married
birwulf. He is so amazingly patient and understanding about these things. And he doesn't even make fun of me (usually =)