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things havent been the greatest lately...
for the past week i have been in a "blah" mood
but my dad just topped it off.
i got a phone call the other day while at playground
its my mom,
sounds frantic but trying to be brave.
she told me that my dad left work and went to the hospital.
i knew it was another heart attack.
...
when i was born my dad was in the hospital with lukemia,
got out for two weeks and had two heart attacks within two days.
so all of this is nothing new.
and hten with my mom a couple of months ago, in the hospital for two weeks.
i feel like i know that place like the back of my hand.
i went to see him with tyler yesterday for the first time.
we both refuse to go near him.
i cant stand seeing my dad all hooked up like that.
its my worst nightmare ever.
i feel bad for tyler because the poor kid is only six. hes already had to go visit his mom and dad at the hospital and be terrified for days that he was going to be left alone.
last night me and my brother slept in my parents roomw ith my mom. she isnt handeling htis very well. every time something like this happens it scares the shit out of everyone in my family. my dad is already 69, these "little" heart attacks, really take a larger toll on him than other people.
i just got the phone call, from my dad say ing he had to stay there again, and they wont let him go yet. hes trying to make it sound like its no big deal. but you can tell hes scared.
im just waiting for eveyrthing to blow over... hopefully it wont take long and he can come home already. and i can stop being so down all the time...