discard presumptions.
the mark of true caring is not placing constraints or demands on that caring, but rather wanting the other person to live their life in a way that brings happiness to them.. whatever that may entail. it is allowing, and in fact encouraging, them to think and change as they see fit.
in some way, you may feel slighted, misled. but check your awareness of the situation. discard presumptions. there was an absence of implications that anything more than a surface closeness with you was wanted, yet it was perceived that way. and the more pulling away that occured, the harder you tried to pull something absent back in... with words not based in reality. with actions you said you would take, then failed to follow through on, on several occassions. it was about the cliche thrill of the conquest. the pleasure in the fight. but i never let you reach into me. ..except for a handful of words i spoke from my heart, which you have now used against me, in an attempt to hurt me in some way. i meant all of those words at the time. but the beauty of life is that it can change instantly, dramatically. and the words change with it.
i'm not sorry i perceived all of this early on. my heart's been bruised and bandaged enough already. and after all that loss, i made a pact with myself to only trust those i knew as fact to have pure intentions, and a mindset towards promoting my happiness.. as that is always what i give to people, and should therefore expect the same in return. and i have kept true to that pact. if that makes me a liar, in your eyes anyway, so be it.
"Contradictions do not exist. Whenever you think you are facing a contradiction, check your premises. You will find that one of them is wrong."
in some way, you may feel slighted, misled. but check your awareness of the situation. discard presumptions. there was an absence of implications that anything more than a surface closeness with you was wanted, yet it was perceived that way. and the more pulling away that occured, the harder you tried to pull something absent back in... with words not based in reality. with actions you said you would take, then failed to follow through on, on several occassions. it was about the cliche thrill of the conquest. the pleasure in the fight. but i never let you reach into me. ..except for a handful of words i spoke from my heart, which you have now used against me, in an attempt to hurt me in some way. i meant all of those words at the time. but the beauty of life is that it can change instantly, dramatically. and the words change with it.
i'm not sorry i perceived all of this early on. my heart's been bruised and bandaged enough already. and after all that loss, i made a pact with myself to only trust those i knew as fact to have pure intentions, and a mindset towards promoting my happiness.. as that is always what i give to people, and should therefore expect the same in return. and i have kept true to that pact. if that makes me a liar, in your eyes anyway, so be it.
"Contradictions do not exist. Whenever you think you are facing a contradiction, check your premises. You will find that one of them is wrong."