im not really sure why i still thought more of you than that
you know who this goes out to
first off i came up and said hi to you because i was genuinely surprised to see you... as well i would have felt rude had i not... i dont particularity care if that makes me the weaker of the two or if you believe that makes me the one who felt she had to apologize... but in fact i actually wanted to say hi...
you are right about one thing... i didnt feel sad or angry or hurt... in fact i felt awkward... just as you did... and actually i felt disgusted at you because as i was trying to talk with you i could see just how uninterested you were in even saying hi...
as for everything else you appear to dislike about me... fine... you are free to what you want to think of me and i cant change that... nor do i want to at this point...but i can say this... i didnt reject you... subtly or otherwise... you were the one who took the fact that i was busy with school and work and the fact that my grandmother was dying in front of my eyes as a sign of rejection... and frankly i dont feel sorry that meant i had no time to spend with my "friends"... because it let me know who my real friends were... the people who stuck around even when i had to turn down offers to hang out or chances to get away... the people who were still there at the end of it all when life got back to a normal pace and i could breathe again... the people who put in the effort of more than a few phone calls even if i didnt have the time or energy to return their calls...
and you know what... i told you why and what i knew about your life...but since you seem to have forgotten that as well it was because stacy had told me... and i didnt know the details... as it appears youve exaggerated again... all i knew is that you were going to be an aunt... once... that was all i had heard and all i wanted to hear quite frankly...
as for your comment of me turning everything around so the topic is on me... i know in this instance you were reffering to the babies... and im sorry if you felt that i was taking away from what happened to you... that i did not intend to do...nor did i intend to make you feel as if i was making fun of your family in any way... because i wasnt... i just wanted you to know that having been through a similar situation i knew that hurt... and was there if you needed...i guess that was stupid of me to think you could put aside the petty feelings... in fact i suppose that just made you feel 'disgusted' at how 'fake' i was...
Last of all no i did not go to your journal and begin to read it... nor do i... however it is still on my friends page and as i was catching up on that i happened to see my name and was curious... dont worry i wont be reading it again nor do i want to...
first off i came up and said hi to you because i was genuinely surprised to see you... as well i would have felt rude had i not... i dont particularity care if that makes me the weaker of the two or if you believe that makes me the one who felt she had to apologize... but in fact i actually wanted to say hi...
you are right about one thing... i didnt feel sad or angry or hurt... in fact i felt awkward... just as you did... and actually i felt disgusted at you because as i was trying to talk with you i could see just how uninterested you were in even saying hi...
as for everything else you appear to dislike about me... fine... you are free to what you want to think of me and i cant change that... nor do i want to at this point...but i can say this... i didnt reject you... subtly or otherwise... you were the one who took the fact that i was busy with school and work and the fact that my grandmother was dying in front of my eyes as a sign of rejection... and frankly i dont feel sorry that meant i had no time to spend with my "friends"... because it let me know who my real friends were... the people who stuck around even when i had to turn down offers to hang out or chances to get away... the people who were still there at the end of it all when life got back to a normal pace and i could breathe again... the people who put in the effort of more than a few phone calls even if i didnt have the time or energy to return their calls...
and you know what... i told you why and what i knew about your life...but since you seem to have forgotten that as well it was because stacy had told me... and i didnt know the details... as it appears youve exaggerated again... all i knew is that you were going to be an aunt... once... that was all i had heard and all i wanted to hear quite frankly...
as for your comment of me turning everything around so the topic is on me... i know in this instance you were reffering to the babies... and im sorry if you felt that i was taking away from what happened to you... that i did not intend to do...nor did i intend to make you feel as if i was making fun of your family in any way... because i wasnt... i just wanted you to know that having been through a similar situation i knew that hurt... and was there if you needed...i guess that was stupid of me to think you could put aside the petty feelings... in fact i suppose that just made you feel 'disgusted' at how 'fake' i was...
Last of all no i did not go to your journal and begin to read it... nor do i... however it is still on my friends page and as i was catching up on that i happened to see my name and was curious... dont worry i wont be reading it again nor do i want to...