will all the others hold me back?

[makeheadsroll]

i'm not too sure about a lot of things.
i'm certainly not too sure of this,
just like i haven't been too sure about the others.
i wonder...

... what keeps me going?
why do i aspire to?
should i bother to strive for what i feel i will never find?

to apply oneself is something i feel lack of motivation for.
because of the past.
because of you.
and you
and you
and you

of course there's more,
but they seem so immature.

perhaps i should only seek out the one thing i long for...

...someone to understand me.

goodnight pretentious fuckheads.