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how can life be so beautiful yet so destructive? but sometimes destruction and disater is beautiful. broken fragile pieces can be the most beautiful.the imperfections can make it complete. i seem to accept this with everyone else except me. i can easily point out all the beauty in someone else but i search and search to find beauty within me and see darkkkk.its like searching for the string to a light in a dark closet smelling of musk and antiques. the wistling of wind makes my soul feel at ease. almost senses the lightness and peace. i love these kind of windy days. everyones imprefections are what sets them apart. but everyone wants to be like someone else. to want more. to be more. neeeeeds to do more. cant we just enjoy the now? is it that impossible to just live in the NOW. if i feel like giving someone a kiss on the cheek or a hugggg to a stranger that makes me smile, why cant i? everyone has loveee in them. even those that feel unlovable. why cant i just laughhhhh out louddddddddd. or justlivetrulylive. without a care of what others might think. of what i should be doing. or shouldnt be doing. b a l a n c e yet excitement. i feel so uninspired. i hurtttttt for others. everyone including me has so many probelms right now. and my stomach aches for everyone everyone. goddddd i love all of you guys. i think people like to think my life is perfect to satisfy the idea in their head. but nobody is perfect. NOBODY. i have so many imperfections.iloveyouguys. i dooooo. everyone has probelms. everyone just needs to allow themselves to a longggg coffeeeee talkkkk with a dear friend, smile to themselves while listening to the wind-seeing the leaves dance-and feeling the cool breeze, give a huggggg to each and everyone person you loveeeeeeee, write yourself a love letter, play on a swingset, go to the zoo, fingerpaint, stare at the starrrrrrs and think of how the world is constantly evolving, buy someone flowers and give them to someone who looks sadddd(ormaybe even yourself), laugh, and smile. and anything that makes you happy. i need to remind myself to do this. im the key to my own happiness. and even though its cliche its true. and i love you<3