Nov 16, 2007 00:55
So I suppose when your boyfriend is really obsessed with Fallout Boy, you have to drive 6 hours to Virginia to see them.
We were probably the oldest people there.
I miss all my friends.
Things with Brian and I are kind of rocky. Sometimes I feel like we are complete strangers even though we are together 24/7. And he always says that I don't appreciate him. Well sometimes I feel like I don't have to because of all the shit he ever put me through and like I know that sounds crazy and unloving, but sometimes I do really only care about myself. And sometimes I do have to literally stand back and wonder why I'm with him. And sometimes when he asks me if I want this to be over I want to say YES. I am just so tired of fighting. He brings out the worst in me. I don't want to tell you that I'm going to smash your bass into a million pieces, or tell you that I hate you, but sometimes you give me NO choice. Sometimes I think that I am only with him to be with someone.