stupid lonely child
okay so things are definatly weird for me right now. i mean i walk around the house with someone i despise and dont talk to, that drives me silently to school everyday and such, who is called mom. im going tanning a lot... im dying my hair lighter pretty soon. i get some pretty weird looks in school after me and doogie broke up or whatever, it was the weirdest thing with him. i mean... im just not the type of girl that goes with someone like him and i knew that but i did it anyways. oh well, experience learned. i doubt he actually liked me anyways. just wanted ass. too bad for him im the hard to get player. not on purpose though. got a JOB at subway i start tuesday at 4. lol i have a good feeling about this job. even though its my first one. im splittin all my money up between a car, college and a new surf board for this summer. should be groovy. i need friends. unique ones. not the plain old fake immature ones. sick of them. im gettin better at guitar too. i love playin it. i learned the white houses song on the piano. i passed all my regents even MATH. YES. score. i need a good boyfriend. one that likes me, i guess i wont accomplish that by dying my hair even more blonde but i can try. im not picky, there just has to be a connection of some kind. im at my aunts right now. last night was drum circle, it was fun i danced my ass off. the ppl there love it too, and they love me. hopefully ill get to see ange later.... i dont think im pretty anymore. like i lost all confidence in that, but i also dont think being pretty matters much anymore. ppl around here are so brought about by society and how they look, most of them cant help it but its sickening. school tomarrow. :0(