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i have this problem, with guys. i never believe my gut feelings, or instincts, i shove them to the side and get hurt. well this time i believed myself. and, i didnt really get hurt, just confused in trying to understand how someone could lead you on that much. Im not going to be close friends with anyone who does that to me. ive been too nice. its changing right now. its all or nothing, nothing or all. thats it, no getting around it. im used to these games, used to the bullshit by now, and enough is enough, i hadnt opened up to anyone in a long time, and finally i decided, "hey lets give it a shot" and wow am i not doing that again, next time i open up, it will be when i know someone really cares. you cant believe a person cares about you, when they tell you they love you (not that i believed it) and not do everything in theyre right mind to have you. i dont care whos reading this, i personally dont give a shit if "hes" even reading this. i dont like mind games, i dont like being told i love you when it cant possibly be, i dont like people try to not show that they like someone, its stupid. i dont like when people say the word "try" when it could be "done". i dont like being pushy, but i have to take care of myself too. and thats it. moving on.