What a day...
Well work was work, i made 30 dollars, and it was a very perverted day. That happens when everyone working is under 23. It was fun.
After work I sat outside on my laptop in the nice weather listening to the internet radio. Afterwards going to McDonalds. I ended up stopping by Billys becuase it was his birthday this week and I forgot to wish him Happy Birthday so I stopped in. Found out Jenny moved out to Canton. Then sarah called and I could have stopped over there, I was going to but was thinking she was still at work, only to find out that she had the day off. OPPS!! The funny thing was I was going to ask her if she wanted to go out for some ice cream, I just never brought it up. So I just came home and got online. I was thinking of going over to Kims house cuase she was having a party, but I dont think I was officially invited. So I call Alison to see when she was going over there. There was no answer. I saw kims name online and im ed her to see if I could see if I was invited without really asking. Basically she said she wasnt doing anything, so I took that as a no. Then Alison called me back and told me she was going over their, but only for a little while.
So I was bored and went to 7 11 to get a slurpee. I came back home and decided to adjust my fog lights becuase they were so far off from being aligned correctly. So after I fixed that I went to drive around.
As I was driving down Outer Dr. Chrissy calls me. It sounded like she was crying so I asked if she was, she responded by telling me that she just was. So she started to tell me what had happened, but then her mother started yelling at her about the situation. She was going to hang up with me but I told her that I would be right over. So I walk in the door and chrissy instantly ran up the stairs and said she had to get out of the house.
So we get underway to do who knows what. After I cough and end up with slurpee inside my nose, which by the way hurts, I get a call from Alison. She said that Kim told everyone it was time to leave. She then asked me if I wanted to do something like Rams Horn or something. I asked chrissy who was fine with the idea and we were on our way.
So we get to Rams Horn and Alison talks about the problems with Kim etc. and Chrissy does the same anout what was going on with Joyce. The funny thing, both Kim and Joyce are doing the same exact things, go figure? So we all order deserts and have lots of conversation. Then to top it all off, guess who walks in the door........
.....Rebekah and Sarah A. O just what is needed, another peice to a long list of things that happened in the past. Bekah waves and smiles and I do the same. They go and sit in non-smoking and that was that.
ALSO Robyn from work happened to show up she talked with us a while and then went and sat with who she came with. Of course ending back over with us cuase she got bored.
So for a few hours Alison, Chrissy and I had a long conversation about Clair, De Ann, and Chrissys friend that passed away. Which unfortunatly I was we didnt talk about becuase it brings up a lot of bad times. And upsets me even more becuase I couldnt attend clairs funeral, becuase I was leaving for Cuba 2 days later. I felt horrible, so hearing people talking about something that I wasnt a part of and wanted to be upsets me very much. Hearing Alison Talk about how much she cared for her didnt help either. It just takes me to a point in my life that I didnt know what was going on. There was so much on my mind about deployment and those of you that were there with me when I got the phone call could see it. I will never forget that moment. It makes me feel like I wasnt really a friend because I wasnt there to see her one final time. Hearing Alison describe certain detail was making me start to tear up and I didnt even want to listen anymore and was starting to ignore the conversation but at the same time I wanted to listen to learn more about something that I wasnt a part of that I should have been. What worries me is whos gonna be next.
After hearing alison talk about her friendship with clair and her feeling finally hit me, why she gets worried that I might be leaving to some country and something happening to me. It would be the same thing happening all over again for her and I wouldnt know how she could handle that again. I shouldnt be thinking about something like that happening to me. Like how would people responde. But I know this Im not going to say things like I know that nothing will happen to me, becuase all it is, is a jinks on myself. I mean I know that has nothing to do with it, but there have been to many wierd things that have happened and Ive relized this after tonights converstions. It all leads to one huge thing.
Sorry about the long entry.