a week isn't long enough for this one.
Troy came over last night. it was weird cause it was like we had forgotten that we broke up. i forgot for a while. we had kissed a few times and he was holding me. we were outside. then we went up stairs in the add-on laying on the bed watching a movie but we were just holding eachother. and we were talking then we set "rules" i guess you could say. lol he had said something. then i said "don't treat me like an obligation" it was something i wanted to say to him the whole time we were together. but before i could explain and before he could respond Sam my brother and his friend knocked on the door holding this cage with a small/midium sized dog they didn't want it so i took it. me and troy named him faice him
(f-eh-ce-). then he had to go. he walked down the stairs and i ran on to the deck to say a final goodbye and said "i love you" and that was it. and then my alarm went off. it was a dream.
anyways i just wish me and him were actually friends. it sucks going from talking to someone everyday. and from telling them everything.to not doing that anymore. i gave him the upper hand. and i like tessa said no girl should have to do that but i did. i could ended it when i first knew the relationship was doomed. but i didn't. i wanted to wait and see. i knew on the wednsday before chirstmas. and it ended on sunday before school. so it was a long time to wait for it to be over but i wasn't sure. you know. he was my first REAL crush. Everything was such a BIG DEAL with him! it felt like it was my first time to ever hold a boys hand! or to actually kiss someone. ( this is my lame "take me back troy" entry so that can tell him NO and feel better about myself..im lame) whatever. i just wanted to write that .
today i am going thrift store shopping! i have to get a dress for tonight! there is a dance tonight in Mackinlyvill. simi formal. modest dress. church dance at 7 if anyone would like to come! you cant miss the building it is right next to taco bell and denny's.! goodday people!