"... Everytime we meet.. it's always love and wine... and pathetic talk..."

[make_this_hurt]

I really need to cut back on my hours some. I've worked 26 hours this week, and I still work 7 hours tomorrow. So, I'm gonna call off one day this next week. I have lots and lots to do.

This week I have:
~3 exams, all of which are around 25% of my semester grade.
~2 papers due.
~Around 20 hours of work.
~To learn two songs, and well, by Thursday, when the songs aren't even set yet.

I think I'm gonna die.

Really.

It's times like these, that I wish I just... could curl up with someone for a little while.

And sleep has been hard to come by, and as you can see, the result is bitchiness. Plus, working with mostly females really sucks sometimes, because they're bitches. Well, most of them are.

*sigh*

I just want to feel wanted right now.
I just want to be talented.
I just want to be attractive.
I just want to know what I want.
I just want to have a clear mind.
I just want hair that doesn't grow out.
I just want to not be an asshole as much as I am.
I just want to get some sleep at night.
I just want to not think about the things I think about sometimes.
I just want to be remembered.
I just want to be appreciated.
I just want to feel comfortable again.
I just want to be head over heels in love again.
I just want to be able to write.
I just want to be connected with someone.
I just want to know where I am.
I just want to be able to speak my mind at the times where it seems I can't.
I just want to see my dog.
I just want to sing my own songs.
I just want to know for sure what I want to do with my life.
I just want to be able to curl and cry with someone right now.
I just want to write music, make a movie, and teach.
I just want to be missed.
I just want to be consistent.
I just want to be the person I was six months ago.
I just want to be over you, so I don't hurt anymore.
I just want to breathe, and not feel like I wish it was my last.
I just want to write a love song for someone right now, and mean it so much.
I just want to kiss someone goodnight.
I just want to laugh and flirt with someone.
I just want to see the world.
I just want to write for the newspaper here, but I don't have the time.
I just want to get involved with the radio station, but I don't have time.
I just want to do the 48 hour film fest with UFO, but I don't have time.
I just want to have the time to do what I want.
I just want to have the drive to do what I want.
I just want to be so sure of myself like I was just a few month ago.
I just want to liked by people.
I just want to be loved by people.
I just want to make an impact on people.
I just want to recognized.
I just want to be loved.
I just want to know for sure that I didn't hurt the person I care about the most.
I just want to know that I didn't ruin my only chance at something amazing.
I just want to know that I know what I think I know.
I just want to be secure about myself.
I just want to be happy with my looks.
I just want to be considered a nice guy.
I just want to finish this damn song I can't seem to finish.
I just want to be what I know I could be.
I just want to not be so worried about paying tuition.
I just want to be smart.
I just want to feel alive again.
I just want to feel happy again.
I just want to feel needed.

I just want too much.

P.S. ~ The Garden State Soundtrack is the best soundtrack ever. Hands down. And Josh was right, the Wicker Park Soundtrack rocks as well.