Imagine: There's No Heaven

[make_the_time]

So, I've been depressed lately. Today was probably the best day of spring break. I served everyone fiercly all week, then tonight, I shut up and hung out with everyone... (Actually, just Gabe and Hope.) Hope is the only girl I know who isn't a bitch faced bitch head. Well, I'm glad I have 2 friends now

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[morethanmach1ne]

That makes me really sad that you don't consider me a friend.
I'm going to write alot so you better read it all, even if you think its shitty faced zib zab.
Okay seriously, I consider you and Gabe to be some of my best guy friends already (Gabe more than you because we actually talk talk) and seriously I know I'm a bitch sometimes and I'm sorry but you guys DO annoy me. I'm like THE most optimistic person ever, i'm always happy, and being around your pessimism, even if its joking around, is something completely new to me. I don't even know how to take it STILL. I apologize for being a bitch. I'm trying hard to get used to you guys and not to be so ioerthjuer90ths90tp. Because...I'm not giving up, even if you fucking hate me. I have SO much hope in my friends and the world, you don't know. I never give up on anyone. My ex treated me like complete shit AND he started doing drugs and shit. He has NO friends and everyone gave up on him...except me. I still talk to him and try to give him hope in life, try to get him to stop doing drugs, i try to make him find himself again. He's such a good person inside and I see that through all the exterior bullshit he puts on. My ex best friend walked all over me SO much and treated me so shittily too. But i always stuck by her because I loved her and i knew that even though she hurt me alot, i still loved her and she was a good person deep down inside. My friends aren't just my friends for popularity, i pick them out because i know they're good people. I know you and Gabe are great people, i can see that instantly. If you weren't, i would have walked away along time ago. You don't understand how much you guys effing mean to me. How much all my friends mean to me. Friends are ALL i have in life. Family=shit. School=shit. Love=shit. Friends=everything. They make me beyond happy, i can't even describe it. I sit in stupid school and picture all the good times i have with them and smile so big, its unbelievable. and yes, your included in that. I don't want you to be all fake around me and later tell gabe you don't want to talk to me. I want you to see what a good person i am, and that may take awhile but it will happen. I'm NOT giving up, no matter what. But please, don't put all the blame on me or just label me a bitch, because 1-you're emo alot, 2-i'm happy 99% of the time 3-you do things to me that are wrong too. But I don't mind because we all have our faults and shit and it happens. I hope you know I'm sincere about everything I say. Trust me, I AM. Ask Gabe. I don't know what else to say really so I'm going to end this, but please think about what I said okay and know that i care for you so much as a friend and i always will.