so yeah, it's been a while
and a lot has changed since i've last posted.
though, i have still not been able to talk to jackson.
to start things off, i've been sick for a couple of weeks now, and in the past few days it has been the worse bit of it. last night i wanted to blow my head off.
other than that;
kinda starting a new band, being that i am banned from jackson and bob is the laziest bandmate i've met
it's really great, im workin on music with trevor and he's a production genius, not to mention, mad guitar skills.
i've been hanging out with him mostly for the past month(ish) or so and also with carly. in the past few months i'd find it safe to say that i fucking reached the gates of heaven, fucking euphoria smacked into my face.
and with that, i pounded my fists at the damn golden gates, figuratively, i'd say that those on the other side just said "hey kid, just wait til you die!"
so yeah, it's a great experience, actually, i've had quite a few great experiences in the past couple of months, most of which, i've never felt like such a fucking rockstar.. but yea.
i discovered a lot about myself in my deep deep new thoughts. also, not as scared to try new things.
- also - if anyone really pays attention to this, know that battle of the bands at my school is on march 30th, so be there and be kind.
i've dropped a few relationships with the people i found myself to be depressed over, or under. a few lost friends, for a few new friends. i met a whole new side to people i've known for many years, just being kept secret from me until i'd have become one of them.
i'm not one of them, but i know the secrets now. i must say, they taste good
for some, i say, FUCK YOU
for some, thanks for being there for me
and for some more, i fucking love you
- sober until not sick -
~EE~
though, i have still not been able to talk to jackson.
to start things off, i've been sick for a couple of weeks now, and in the past few days it has been the worse bit of it. last night i wanted to blow my head off.
other than that;
kinda starting a new band, being that i am banned from jackson and bob is the laziest bandmate i've met
it's really great, im workin on music with trevor and he's a production genius, not to mention, mad guitar skills.
i've been hanging out with him mostly for the past month(ish) or so and also with carly. in the past few months i'd find it safe to say that i fucking reached the gates of heaven, fucking euphoria smacked into my face.
and with that, i pounded my fists at the damn golden gates, figuratively, i'd say that those on the other side just said "hey kid, just wait til you die!"
so yeah, it's a great experience, actually, i've had quite a few great experiences in the past couple of months, most of which, i've never felt like such a fucking rockstar.. but yea.
i discovered a lot about myself in my deep deep new thoughts. also, not as scared to try new things.
- also - if anyone really pays attention to this, know that battle of the bands at my school is on march 30th, so be there and be kind.
i've dropped a few relationships with the people i found myself to be depressed over, or under. a few lost friends, for a few new friends. i met a whole new side to people i've known for many years, just being kept secret from me until i'd have become one of them.
i'm not one of them, but i know the secrets now. i must say, they taste good
for some, i say, FUCK YOU
for some, thanks for being there for me
and for some more, i fucking love you
- sober until not sick -
~EE~