Doll-lemma
I'm having a personal conflict of the bjd variety...
I've saved up about half the money for my Spinel, and I've created a persona for him too.. But when I look at it.. its a LOT of money, and I keep thinking of all the things I could do, like buy a new iPod, or treat myself to some new summer clothes.. or on the responsible side, put it in the bank and just leave it there.. maybe save for a car and wait until I get a steady job.. Either way, I'm beginning to doubt my true love of resin.
At first, I was enamored, and the thought of a doll of my own, even just one, set my mind into a creative explosion.. Oh the things I would do with my own resin canvas. but as enthralled as I am with that though, I don't have a job, and I've started thinking about how irresponsible I am with my own money. How badly do I want Spinel? Am I willing to take the financial plunge in the name of art? Would I look at him and feel guilty because there are 1001 other ways I could have spent the money? I just don't know, I love the idea, and I love the hobby, but I'm having second thoughts..
I know I can't keep on the way I have been, I'm entirely too loose with my cash, but if it brings me happiness, should I just go for it?
Spinel isn't the solution to my problems, but it would make me happy.
I've saved up about half the money for my Spinel, and I've created a persona for him too.. But when I look at it.. its a LOT of money, and I keep thinking of all the things I could do, like buy a new iPod, or treat myself to some new summer clothes.. or on the responsible side, put it in the bank and just leave it there.. maybe save for a car and wait until I get a steady job.. Either way, I'm beginning to doubt my true love of resin.
At first, I was enamored, and the thought of a doll of my own, even just one, set my mind into a creative explosion.. Oh the things I would do with my own resin canvas. but as enthralled as I am with that though, I don't have a job, and I've started thinking about how irresponsible I am with my own money. How badly do I want Spinel? Am I willing to take the financial plunge in the name of art? Would I look at him and feel guilty because there are 1001 other ways I could have spent the money? I just don't know, I love the idea, and I love the hobby, but I'm having second thoughts..
I know I can't keep on the way I have been, I'm entirely too loose with my cash, but if it brings me happiness, should I just go for it?
Spinel isn't the solution to my problems, but it would make me happy.