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i just got off the phone with a friend, and i haven't wanted to hurt myself more. its not her thats making me want to, its that shes sad and when shes sad the things she does hurt me. its so upsetting talking to someone thats high, not funny ha ha high but life sucks i need relief high. i don't like it because i care about her way too much to see her hurting herself like this. sure when i cut excessivly we stopped talking and it basically killed me. i don't want to abandon her like she did to me. i want to be there to help like a friend should. i think that if we didn't have each other as friends we would be more miserable then we are now, and even tho shes hurrting me so bad by getting high to take away the hurt i can relate. but i guess no one wants someone they love to hurt themselves like that.