Another Day Filled with Boredum, Another Night of Loneliness
what if i ripped your heart apart at the seems? maybe then you'd know how i feel.
today i got up, sat around. talked to nicole a bit online, and then she left, and came to my house with creamed ice!!! i love that girl, she totally rocks my world and so much more. my galaxy, ha. so then i sat around some more, and i talked to tim. it's funny how when you think you're the only person who feels this shitty, there's someone else who knows exactly how you're feeling. two in my case.
i went out to the barn today around 2ish with sarah, that was fun. she rode fire, otto and goose. i rode the codenator duh, and i got to ride the pony!! the new pony, pepper. haha. she's so small, so speedy, so fun!! but yeah so we were there for a few hours, and sarah bought me creamed ice on the way home! besides chicken, that's all i had to eat today. oh, how healthy. so i came home, showered, and laid down to watch some tv, and ended up taking an hour nap.
i wish i had a car so i could go and visit nic-OL. because i think that she needs a visit. scratch that, i wish i had a license, because the car is out there ---->
mom is going to MA (i cant spell it :( ) on thursday-sunday. we planned this road trip together, but now i'm not gunna go. she said that she'd take me some other time when we can visit cape cod and actually go into the city. because she has this friend, who has 4 kids, one girl my age, she listens to good music, anyway; she's an artist so they're pretty poor, but i guess they have an awesome little house on the water and they live RIGHT out of the city. i really wanted to go, but katie wants to come out this weekend so she won't have to stay home alone. so i figured i'll just go to MA next time. plus im going to birthday bash with nic-OL on saturday.
yeah. i keep thinking tomorrow's thursday. i wish. but noooo. brandon comes home kinda soon. i really really miss that kid. i'm so lost on what date it is. nic-OL says its the 14th so i'll believe her.
god. i just got really really frustrated and really stressed. i hate that. it happens a lot to me. it only lasts about 10 minutes though. ugh.
sarah and dad both have to use this computer now. sarah's fixing hers. thank god.