okay....
okay, so alot has happened. and he asked y i haven't updated, so i'm updating. this has been hard, and what seems like an eternity. but i do love him w.all i have and in my mind and soul i do think that we can work this out, and i hope we do.
i hope we can look past this. and i think we have potential. i'm so confused and i feel just kinda... well BLAH! lol i'm not sure what i am. just BLAH! lol but i'm not sure what is to happen. he wants to go to the banquet together (both of em) then fiqure it out from there. but anywho**
we're gonna B together this weekend, and that might be hard, b.c i'll want to be like old times and it won't b. that's really sad.
i wish he'd comment.... COMMENT! say something sweet. lol yeah right. but please...
anyways, i feel like i have no friends, kinda weird, but i do. like i have mer, but i don't really hangout w. her that much anymore. then kenz-0 is always w. kate and so0mer. i mean that's okay. i'm glad she has those other ppl there. i just feel like w.out him i have NO life. and i don't lol but that's okay.
i do really love him and i really just want him to B happy, even tho he won't b for a while b.c he's pissed b.c i screwed up. SORRY!! <3 you! lol
i think we'll work things out, mayB. but i hope so. i hate thinking of life w.out him. it sux! we belong together, and it hurts to think of him w.someone else. like getting over me and finding some one perfect for him, since obviously i'm not. i screw up, and make mistakes. doesn't everybody?? or @ least that's what i thought.
anyways, i'll keep ya'll updated on the situation, or try to anyways. everything happens faster than i can think of what to say, what to do or how to react.
it's funny out of 3 years, this has NEVER came up. nothing like this. and i'm not sure how to face it. i need prayers, and one of my best friends, jesus. he's a cool kid by the way. lol but i gotta go!
((i.love.you))
me
i hope we can look past this. and i think we have potential. i'm so confused and i feel just kinda... well BLAH! lol i'm not sure what i am. just BLAH! lol but i'm not sure what is to happen. he wants to go to the banquet together (both of em) then fiqure it out from there. but anywho**
we're gonna B together this weekend, and that might be hard, b.c i'll want to be like old times and it won't b. that's really sad.
i wish he'd comment.... COMMENT! say something sweet. lol yeah right. but please...
anyways, i feel like i have no friends, kinda weird, but i do. like i have mer, but i don't really hangout w. her that much anymore. then kenz-0 is always w. kate and so0mer. i mean that's okay. i'm glad she has those other ppl there. i just feel like w.out him i have NO life. and i don't lol but that's okay.
i do really love him and i really just want him to B happy, even tho he won't b for a while b.c he's pissed b.c i screwed up. SORRY!! <3 you! lol
i think we'll work things out, mayB. but i hope so. i hate thinking of life w.out him. it sux! we belong together, and it hurts to think of him w.someone else. like getting over me and finding some one perfect for him, since obviously i'm not. i screw up, and make mistakes. doesn't everybody?? or @ least that's what i thought.
anyways, i'll keep ya'll updated on the situation, or try to anyways. everything happens faster than i can think of what to say, what to do or how to react.
it's funny out of 3 years, this has NEVER came up. nothing like this. and i'm not sure how to face it. i need prayers, and one of my best friends, jesus. he's a cool kid by the way. lol but i gotta go!
((i.love.you))
me