If you were here I'd never have a fear, so go on live your life.
I fucking knew this would happen.
I can feel it already.
And I dunno what to do about it.
No matter what I have done about it in the past, it just happens.
And I don't wanna be up at this time, talking abuot this, but I can never sleep.
So many things going on right now, so suddenly.
I didn't wanna do it all at the one time, fucking parents. Fucking liofe. Fucking growing up.
I need a fucking drink.
As good as life can be, when you are with your friends and "friends" in school, in reality, in the large spectrum of things, its all just a cover up.
This is why I need a drink.
Hmmm... Gemmells on Saturday. Will be good to see him and people. :)
Even if we'll hardly be there.
David got the MCR DVD.
I watched it.
I miss MCR. :(
Listening to them now, and I still know what it is I love about them. :)
I dont wanna go to school.
I don't wanna spend a second more on this stupid computing project.
I just want Stow to accept me or deny me so I can get out that fucking place.
As much as I can say that I miss people, and as much as they say it back, where is the fucking effort.
I knwo I am guilty of it aswell, but I have alot to do right now. Coomputing project, work, driving, family.
And to top it off, the one thing I have been majorly looking forward to, my 18th birthday present, I can't fucking have.
thats anotehr thing I hate, the rents saying they can get me this and that, and yeah, its nice that they offer, but whether they try or not is a different story, and don't fucking say you can get me it if their is a cahnce you can't.
Mmm... Linkin Park, so appropriate.
Wanna know what I miss?
Richard.
Watson.
Cammy.
Max!
Laura.
Hollie.
Notice how most of those people have bene the closest thing to me at some point in my life.
ALL OF THEM.
What the fuck does that mean?!
What am I doing wrong!?
Its not as if I take them for granted, NOT IN THE SLIGHTEST.
I cherish all my friends, cause without them I am nothing.
Myself and them know that.
Grant is having a Pimps n Ho's party next week.
Dunno what to do about that one.
Will be good to see people.
Some things always get in the way though.
I really shouldn't be up, may go watch some more of that MCR DVD.
Tis awesome.
Love you. xxx
St. Johnny.
I can feel it already.
And I dunno what to do about it.
No matter what I have done about it in the past, it just happens.
And I don't wanna be up at this time, talking abuot this, but I can never sleep.
So many things going on right now, so suddenly.
I didn't wanna do it all at the one time, fucking parents. Fucking liofe. Fucking growing up.
I need a fucking drink.
As good as life can be, when you are with your friends and "friends" in school, in reality, in the large spectrum of things, its all just a cover up.
This is why I need a drink.
Hmmm... Gemmells on Saturday. Will be good to see him and people. :)
Even if we'll hardly be there.
David got the MCR DVD.
I watched it.
I miss MCR. :(
Listening to them now, and I still know what it is I love about them. :)
I dont wanna go to school.
I don't wanna spend a second more on this stupid computing project.
I just want Stow to accept me or deny me so I can get out that fucking place.
As much as I can say that I miss people, and as much as they say it back, where is the fucking effort.
I knwo I am guilty of it aswell, but I have alot to do right now. Coomputing project, work, driving, family.
And to top it off, the one thing I have been majorly looking forward to, my 18th birthday present, I can't fucking have.
thats anotehr thing I hate, the rents saying they can get me this and that, and yeah, its nice that they offer, but whether they try or not is a different story, and don't fucking say you can get me it if their is a cahnce you can't.
Mmm... Linkin Park, so appropriate.
Wanna know what I miss?
Richard.
Watson.
Cammy.
Max!
Laura.
Hollie.
Notice how most of those people have bene the closest thing to me at some point in my life.
ALL OF THEM.
What the fuck does that mean?!
What am I doing wrong!?
Its not as if I take them for granted, NOT IN THE SLIGHTEST.
I cherish all my friends, cause without them I am nothing.
Myself and them know that.
Grant is having a Pimps n Ho's party next week.
Dunno what to do about that one.
Will be good to see people.
Some things always get in the way though.
I really shouldn't be up, may go watch some more of that MCR DVD.
Tis awesome.
Love you. xxx
St. Johnny.