total bummer i discovered all these fun color things you can do with the posts...on my last one
"WE'VE COME A LONG LONG WAY TOGETHER, THROUGH THE HARD TIMES AND THE BAD. I GOT TO CELEBRATE YOU BABY...I GOT TO PRAISE YOU LIKE I SHOULD."
i guess some may say this sort of record of events is a good thing, this live journal...like a diary or scrap book. maybe youre just not supposed to read over it. but i just spent the better part of the last two hours reading my "archives"...yes ALL of my live journal posts. frankly, im horrified.
first, i cant believe i put it all out for the internet world to see, second, i cant believe the person who wrote most of those things was me. i dont know who that girl was, but i feel bad for her. it was surreal to read all of that. i felt like i was reading a movie script for a really really bad teenage angst movie that had some random clips from Cluless in it. What was my deal? jesus. i guess thats why they say hindsight is 20/20 right? because a lot of the time i wanted to slap that girl and tell her life isnt that horrid. things work out in the end. youll be ok! it will all be ok! and really, it is.
so maybe there is some value to being able to recount all of the dramas. at least i learned from it, i guess. or something cliche like that. im just glad im not that girl anymore...because really...who wants to be that girl!? im a little suprised my friends even wanted to be friends with that girl! (thank you by the way, i do love you wonderful, amazing, one of a kind people)
thank god my life isnt hanging on every moment of drama. do you know how many of those situations were avoidable?
IE:
1. it is NEVER a good idea to continuously interact with someone you were NEVER able to have anything but an unfailingly unhealthy "non-relationship" with. its common knowledge that a scab cant heal if you keep picking at it. DUH.
2. if 80% of your "happy" posts are when your drunk, maybe you might want to, oh i dont know, not drink for a while and figure it out? DUH.
3. if it seems like all of these little dramas are ALWAYS with the same people, you probably should either, a. not surround yourself with said company, or b. consider that maybe, just maybe youre being a little over dramatic... just a thought. DUH.
dear that girl,
in reading your live journal posts, i thought that this definition may be of some use to you.
insanity: continuously repeating the same action and expecting a different result.
please note; this course of action will never turn out to be a good thing, or work to your benefit. keep this information handy for future reference or in case of an emergency.
sincerely,
this girl.
i do have to say though, in that girls defense, there were a lot of unneccesary obstacles put purposely, directly, in her path. she was bound to trip on some of them. and she did try to get some of these "bad" things/people out of her life, they were just really really REALLY intent on being life lessons for her. oh well. what are ya gonna do.
CURRENT MOOD: embarrassment, horror, shame, moronic, rediculous, sad, melencholy, some "oh yea that was awesome," humored, tired, but most of all...CONTENT.
no really, content. because i guess i am glad that i had this thing to read back in. because if i didnt, it would be a lot harder to appreciate what i do have now. and im just glad im this girl, instead of that girl. because that girl probably wouldnt be able to realize just how good shes got it.
so i think that my live journal life has run its course. a wise kristin once told me to do something until the feeling is gone, and the feeling, shitty as it was, was there for a reason. but at this point, i cant even remember what that reason was, let alone that shitty feeling. so i guess the feeling is gone, leaving me with no good reason for this anymore. i came in lookin for something, and im goin out with what i found. and what i did find sure as fuck makes me content.
peace out motha truckas...its been real
i guess some may say this sort of record of events is a good thing, this live journal...like a diary or scrap book. maybe youre just not supposed to read over it. but i just spent the better part of the last two hours reading my "archives"...yes ALL of my live journal posts. frankly, im horrified.
first, i cant believe i put it all out for the internet world to see, second, i cant believe the person who wrote most of those things was me. i dont know who that girl was, but i feel bad for her. it was surreal to read all of that. i felt like i was reading a movie script for a really really bad teenage angst movie that had some random clips from Cluless in it. What was my deal? jesus. i guess thats why they say hindsight is 20/20 right? because a lot of the time i wanted to slap that girl and tell her life isnt that horrid. things work out in the end. youll be ok! it will all be ok! and really, it is.
so maybe there is some value to being able to recount all of the dramas. at least i learned from it, i guess. or something cliche like that. im just glad im not that girl anymore...because really...who wants to be that girl!? im a little suprised my friends even wanted to be friends with that girl! (thank you by the way, i do love you wonderful, amazing, one of a kind people)
thank god my life isnt hanging on every moment of drama. do you know how many of those situations were avoidable?
IE:
1. it is NEVER a good idea to continuously interact with someone you were NEVER able to have anything but an unfailingly unhealthy "non-relationship" with. its common knowledge that a scab cant heal if you keep picking at it. DUH.
2. if 80% of your "happy" posts are when your drunk, maybe you might want to, oh i dont know, not drink for a while and figure it out? DUH.
3. if it seems like all of these little dramas are ALWAYS with the same people, you probably should either, a. not surround yourself with said company, or b. consider that maybe, just maybe youre being a little over dramatic... just a thought. DUH.
dear that girl,
in reading your live journal posts, i thought that this definition may be of some use to you.
insanity: continuously repeating the same action and expecting a different result.
please note; this course of action will never turn out to be a good thing, or work to your benefit. keep this information handy for future reference or in case of an emergency.
sincerely,
this girl.
i do have to say though, in that girls defense, there were a lot of unneccesary obstacles put purposely, directly, in her path. she was bound to trip on some of them. and she did try to get some of these "bad" things/people out of her life, they were just really really REALLY intent on being life lessons for her. oh well. what are ya gonna do.
CURRENT MOOD: embarrassment, horror, shame, moronic, rediculous, sad, melencholy, some "oh yea that was awesome," humored, tired, but most of all...CONTENT.
no really, content. because i guess i am glad that i had this thing to read back in. because if i didnt, it would be a lot harder to appreciate what i do have now. and im just glad im this girl, instead of that girl. because that girl probably wouldnt be able to realize just how good shes got it.
so i think that my live journal life has run its course. a wise kristin once told me to do something until the feeling is gone, and the feeling, shitty as it was, was there for a reason. but at this point, i cant even remember what that reason was, let alone that shitty feeling. so i guess the feeling is gone, leaving me with no good reason for this anymore. i came in lookin for something, and im goin out with what i found. and what i did find sure as fuck makes me content.
peace out motha truckas...its been real