slightly relieved
ok today has been a day of procrastinating...i should just go up and go to bed start fresh in the morning but i'm too stubborn.....oh how i can rationalize my non-productiveness.....i did have my first exam this morning at 9 which means i woke up at 7:30 which i haven't done (i've been up continuously until 7 am but...) in forever b/c my class schedule allows me such. Anyways i worked myself silly on this exam that i just had and now that its done well i just want all of them to be done....i should be studying for politics which i am throughly scared about, and i should care the most about this one considering my lowest mark is in politics......urrrhhghghg its just so overwhelming!
so iam releived that i have done my first university exam but even more releif was felt today when i finally talked to jenny about the awkwardness and my guilt that semi blew up in my face today as i was confronted by it the form of lots of "jokes" which i know are a way to cover up the upset factor....i hate the feeling of keeping things bottled up.....especially when you feel like you're constantly doing something wrong and are guilt riden about it.
i was being kinda a jerk though....
but now it's as if a huge wait has been lifted off me and off our friendship
hence my relief
recently i've been feeling like i'm in a movie or something....this kinda of drama isn't something that i've really had to deal with before......
yeah check it out me drama? what???
so iam releived that i have done my first university exam but even more releif was felt today when i finally talked to jenny about the awkwardness and my guilt that semi blew up in my face today as i was confronted by it the form of lots of "jokes" which i know are a way to cover up the upset factor....i hate the feeling of keeping things bottled up.....especially when you feel like you're constantly doing something wrong and are guilt riden about it.
i was being kinda a jerk though....
but now it's as if a huge wait has been lifted off me and off our friendship
hence my relief
recently i've been feeling like i'm in a movie or something....this kinda of drama isn't something that i've really had to deal with before......
yeah check it out me drama? what???