changes
I was thinking more than i wanted to this weekend and i was trying to figure some things out but i seem to have a mental block.
these days i feel like my brow is constantly furrowed....looking back on my week it was proabbly one of the best if not the best weeks i've had here...i really learned to appreciate and love some things, including peterborough
some unwanted feelings may be developing and they are making me sick....
i don't want to stop myself from being loved and loving in return...i'm afraid of doing that
hmmm another thing that i've been thinking about recently that i find interesting is that my friendship pattern has changed what i mean is that for those who have known me for a while (which is most of you) probably know that for most of my life i have always connected more with girls and womyn than with boys and men and for the 10 really good womyn friends i have i have maybe one good guy friend and even then it's never on the same level as my connection with womyn...but in the last couple of weeks it has become shockingly evident that the best connections i have formed at university are mostly with men...not to say that i haven't made good connections with womyn....but the best connections have been made with men...it's strange
it isn't/shouldn't be a big deal...but it's kind of confusing navigating through this shift...cause it is different
these days i feel like my brow is constantly furrowed....looking back on my week it was proabbly one of the best if not the best weeks i've had here...i really learned to appreciate and love some things, including peterborough
some unwanted feelings may be developing and they are making me sick....
i don't want to stop myself from being loved and loving in return...i'm afraid of doing that
hmmm another thing that i've been thinking about recently that i find interesting is that my friendship pattern has changed what i mean is that for those who have known me for a while (which is most of you) probably know that for most of my life i have always connected more with girls and womyn than with boys and men and for the 10 really good womyn friends i have i have maybe one good guy friend and even then it's never on the same level as my connection with womyn...but in the last couple of weeks it has become shockingly evident that the best connections i have formed at university are mostly with men...not to say that i haven't made good connections with womyn....but the best connections have been made with men...it's strange
it isn't/shouldn't be a big deal...but it's kind of confusing navigating through this shift...cause it is different