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So, turned off feelings for Isa. Sorry to those who counseled me otherwise, it had to be done. I jsut KNOW that kid is gonna date Kath at some point, and I don't want to feed something like that.
Anyway, depressingly there is STILL! Collin drama. So he had his play, "As You Like It" going on, and I wanted to see, but we hadn't been talking frequently, so anyway, I go to the play, not sure what to expect. Mom and I get there an hour early, so we're sitting around waiting, and to my horror I realize I'm getting the chest feeling of panic and over excitement when your heart just beats too fast, and you just have to pace, and that made me a little nauseous. I have to admit it was all at the thought of seeing Collin, and seeing him do what he's best at. So I'm getting way to excited and he happens to walk out to go to the bathroom, and sort've waves to my mom and I, but doesn't come over to talk. So he seemed to be sorta stand-offish, so I was instantly crushed and decided, well, he probably doesn't wanna see me. So I saw the play, and he was GREAT. He had the biggest role pretty much and he is a fantastic actor.
Anyhow, afterwards Lia pulls me around while she give and receives congrats, and points out Alexis, who is pretty, I think, but according to Lia it's only because she was in stage make-up... anyway, so this attractive guy who's tall, wearing girl pants (Looks just like Neil Cicieraga for those who know who that is) comes crashing into me. He apoligized and later he and I start tlaking. Actually, how it started was Lia was talking to someone else and his words were, "So Lia, who's this sexy beast" addressing me. But Lia doesn't hear him so I look over at Lia then back at him and he was mock raking the air with his fingers bent into claws. Funniest thing ever. So I introduce myself and Lia negligently throws in that I'm Collin's ex which lead to commments like, "So you were the one people actually liked," and "Wanna date Collin again and get rid of Lexi?" He was a cool kid, but I'm pretty sure he was gay.... anyways, moving on, Collin was meanwhile getting fawned over, and I didn't wanna go over and butt in, so I just sorta stayed a little ways away. Finally I walk past him once and makes a quick grab at my arm. I turn, totally happy that he's aknowledging me, I hug im, congratulate him, make a little bit of small tlak then he has to go. So he goes, and I have to leave before saying bye. So I email him saying again how great he was and how pretty Alexis was, and how I wished I coulda talked to her and he explodes at me, saying that I got up and wlalked away from her, and how I avoided him. I finally straightened it all out but it took a whole day of emailing. Rawr, why is there STILL drama with that kid???
But TODAY I hung with Ben Porter, Isaac, and Kath and went swimming and that was a blast.
Anyway, depressingly there is STILL! Collin drama. So he had his play, "As You Like It" going on, and I wanted to see, but we hadn't been talking frequently, so anyway, I go to the play, not sure what to expect. Mom and I get there an hour early, so we're sitting around waiting, and to my horror I realize I'm getting the chest feeling of panic and over excitement when your heart just beats too fast, and you just have to pace, and that made me a little nauseous. I have to admit it was all at the thought of seeing Collin, and seeing him do what he's best at. So I'm getting way to excited and he happens to walk out to go to the bathroom, and sort've waves to my mom and I, but doesn't come over to talk. So he seemed to be sorta stand-offish, so I was instantly crushed and decided, well, he probably doesn't wanna see me. So I saw the play, and he was GREAT. He had the biggest role pretty much and he is a fantastic actor.
Anyhow, afterwards Lia pulls me around while she give and receives congrats, and points out Alexis, who is pretty, I think, but according to Lia it's only because she was in stage make-up... anyway, so this attractive guy who's tall, wearing girl pants (Looks just like Neil Cicieraga for those who know who that is) comes crashing into me. He apoligized and later he and I start tlaking. Actually, how it started was Lia was talking to someone else and his words were, "So Lia, who's this sexy beast" addressing me. But Lia doesn't hear him so I look over at Lia then back at him and he was mock raking the air with his fingers bent into claws. Funniest thing ever. So I introduce myself and Lia negligently throws in that I'm Collin's ex which lead to commments like, "So you were the one people actually liked," and "Wanna date Collin again and get rid of Lexi?" He was a cool kid, but I'm pretty sure he was gay.... anyways, moving on, Collin was meanwhile getting fawned over, and I didn't wanna go over and butt in, so I just sorta stayed a little ways away. Finally I walk past him once and makes a quick grab at my arm. I turn, totally happy that he's aknowledging me, I hug im, congratulate him, make a little bit of small tlak then he has to go. So he goes, and I have to leave before saying bye. So I email him saying again how great he was and how pretty Alexis was, and how I wished I coulda talked to her and he explodes at me, saying that I got up and wlalked away from her, and how I avoided him. I finally straightened it all out but it took a whole day of emailing. Rawr, why is there STILL drama with that kid???
But TODAY I hung with Ben Porter, Isaac, and Kath and went swimming and that was a blast.