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[makaalz]

This intoxication,
How do I free myself from it?
It is painful,
but oh it is so sweet.
God, I try so hard to resist!
To cast it away-
But who could ever do such a thing?
It teases you.
When you hurt beyond acceptance,
it gives pleasure like no other.

Ugh!
How has this persisted so long?
Wretched thing!
Horrid thing!
Please, please, bring me joy.
I am too much an addict to quit;
I am too impatient to wait.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
But I can never have peace while I have you.