R.I.P Cocoa

[maka_nani]

So last night was interesting. I opened up my crabs' cage to give them new water and Cocoa was laying on his side in the food dish. Then I realized his leg was laying next to him. So I picked Cocoa up by the shell to see if he was ok and his body fell out of the shell. Cocoa is dead. Since it was Chris' I thought it would be nice to give him a call and let him know his crab was dead. I called him and we talked for a little while, which was interesting since I hadn't talked to him since he let me know he was having a party... anyway. So I was asking him about school and stuff and then asked if he had a girlfriend. And he does. Isn't that funny? First we break up because he told me drinking alcohol was more important than me and our relationship, and now not even a month after we break up, he has a new girlfriend. I think it's funny. I talked to Josh for a long time last night. And he really agrees with me. Doing that t someone, there's no way that he could have possibly cared about me, I've thrown love out the window. Not entirely, but I know for a fact Chris didn't love me. But that's ok, I just wish we'd broken up a long time ago, or that we'd not gotten together in the first place. It wasn't worth it, everything that happened, all the crap. So I'm glad it's over.

I was really upset last night, just because my crab is dead and I'm scared the other one is going to die now, and the whole Chris thing, it just hurts, you know? Having put so much into the relationship, and it bing so one sided.

God has a plan, that's all I can say.