honey, i'm a prize..and you're a catch...and we're the perfect match
i need pavement back in my life again, i think.
i always feel happier when they're going.
i know this isnt the problem but its a temporary
fix
and i don't even go out anymore.. i just work and sit...
and I mean I understand why... I can't up and go after 9 pm like I used to. the vulnerability to the philly night is something i cant chance anymore. i could when i was 15.. i'd be on that bus at 1 am... but not now.
Whenever I try to identify myself.. the last time I always recall is when i was 16 and 17 and then after that its blank. I think i've become so good at blocking things out that i've began to forget myself.
and people have said i've changed and i have
i clear all my time for work and deadlines and thursday night tv which ultimately leads to $
but don't get me wrong, its not much at all.
at least i have my first painting mapped.. i can do this one at a time until april 19th. by one at a time, i mean i need about 10 more. but thats alright, I have the means to do it at home with my brand new adobe suite :)
I do need to start going out again though. I'm wasting these days away..
I think next weekend will be to that. and to new clothes definately.. I work downtown there is no excuse to not be out there afterwards.
alright i need to get myself ready for the day (sans jeans).
i always feel happier when they're going.
i know this isnt the problem but its a temporary
fix
and i don't even go out anymore.. i just work and sit...
and I mean I understand why... I can't up and go after 9 pm like I used to. the vulnerability to the philly night is something i cant chance anymore. i could when i was 15.. i'd be on that bus at 1 am... but not now.
Whenever I try to identify myself.. the last time I always recall is when i was 16 and 17 and then after that its blank. I think i've become so good at blocking things out that i've began to forget myself.
and people have said i've changed and i have
i clear all my time for work and deadlines and thursday night tv which ultimately leads to $
but don't get me wrong, its not much at all.
at least i have my first painting mapped.. i can do this one at a time until april 19th. by one at a time, i mean i need about 10 more. but thats alright, I have the means to do it at home with my brand new adobe suite :)
I do need to start going out again though. I'm wasting these days away..
I think next weekend will be to that. and to new clothes definately.. I work downtown there is no excuse to not be out there afterwards.
alright i need to get myself ready for the day (sans jeans).