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I'm fucking pissed. I feel like I've been lied to. I have been lied to. If I ask her about it she'll just say that her plans got changed. But what am I sopposed to do. Yell at her, when I can't express anger? It's like I've been stabbed in the back agian. Just fuck. I wish I could be done with this, but I can't.
I can't control myself. My feelings have too much control over me. I hate it when I try to do something to make a statement and it blows up in my face. Maybe I should just put that aside and let it happen. What ever. I need to find a way to take control of my self, and make feelings second in life, and success in what I love first.
I really wish I could express anger in some way. It just ends up getting bottled inside, and subsiding till the next event. I'm a frikkin bottle of fuck about to explode. I don't know what else to say...there isn't much else I can say without telling it all.
I can't control myself. My feelings have too much control over me. I hate it when I try to do something to make a statement and it blows up in my face. Maybe I should just put that aside and let it happen. What ever. I need to find a way to take control of my self, and make feelings second in life, and success in what I love first.
I really wish I could express anger in some way. It just ends up getting bottled inside, and subsiding till the next event. I'm a frikkin bottle of fuck about to explode. I don't know what else to say...there isn't much else I can say without telling it all.