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i have this huge knot feeling the back of my throat. You know the kind; the ones that you get when you try really hard to choke back tears. That one memorable night will haunt me for the rest of my life. Those three sickening weeks. Still I have something better, something more, something safe...i think. How could you even begin to say that or bring that up? Thats the last thing I ever want to think about as long as I lived. I should have listened to you. You, the one who, by some miricle, points me in the right direction and is always wrong when sarcastic. For some reason I'll never tell anyone. I don't tell anyone most things unless they ask. Even you. If you don't ask then you don't care and you'll never know. Oh well, you'll get over it, but it fact if you never knew about it to begin with you wouldn't have anything to get over. Sometimes I wake up so suddenly at night after some sort of vision thinking of rain. Thats weird. Just a side comment. I have so many memorable expiriances. Most good, some bad. Anyway, abstract thinker, i think you're wrong acstractly this time. Too dense, not dense enough, who knows? Certainly not me, I'm not sure and i'm sure your not sure that i'm sure of anything. i'm sure of it. Thats just me. On another side note, what do you think the sexiest animal is? anyway, i'm more stubborn than a bull sorry sweetie it comes with the territory. I'm in love with relentlessness and am more single-minded and perverse than anyone you have ever met in your enitre life. Make sure i don't put that down on a job application or a dating servise resume. In the words of two wondeful people, welcome to my life. Lets hope its dies in several years, but not after i've done what i want and whats needed.