122 - WHOA THERE finally addressing some flood issues

[major_west]

I've been here for nearly two years now, and while others may have seen results, I have not. It's become clear to me that no matter what course I'd have taken, the end result would have been the same: they live. My men and I die. Perhaps, if I had been a better man-- by whatever metric you wardens measure it by-- I'd have had no second chance at

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Morgan will want to shake your hand later, Howie. Thank you :|

[gimmethemap]

:c

[major_west]

There was no "right thing" in that situation. Had I done what would have likely averted my status as an Inmate, I'd have betrayed the very people who were relying upon me.

It's better than being dead.

[major_west]

Having retained memories of the road not taken, thanks to that flood, I fail to see any real difference. Perhaps my conscience was clearer, but I was a traitor with a death wish.

You're essentially questioning my present existence. Yes, this is preferable to death.

but but but West's an atheist :C

[major_west]

No. I have found things here that I never dreamt I could have back home.

Not particularly. There may well be nothing at all beyond the Barge.

BILLY > NOT RAPING GIRLS, SORRY

[major_west]

You don't even know what I did. Perhaps I suffer no guilt at all, most days.

The only judgement I have ever faced was my arrival here. If this is the worst the universe has to offer, I'll accept it.

[major_west]

I would've seen some wrong with the alternative, too. It means nothing.

Oh, it absolutely isn't the best. But I don't put in any stock in the vague possibility of a 'heaven' or a 'hell.'

[major_west]

Yes. Perhaps, if I had acted differently and my men had lived, I would happily go back and make efforts to right my wrongs. But I see now that no matter what I'd done, they were marked for death.

[major_west]

Everything I'd done was for them, not for me. It does make the act worthless when I find that even repenting, even doing the opposite, would have STILL brought their deaths.