Needing advice :/
wow yeah, im stuck in a complete state of depression and in need of some advice..
ok, to some this will be pathetically obvious and to some others it won't be that obvious, but still the same to anyone who ends up reading this, please give your opinions, and if you have to comment anonymously then i guess you must but i need all the advice i can get.
Well, first off read these lyrics (I'll tell you why afterwards):
Have You Ever?
Brandy
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do anything to look in their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get in your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep
The reason i had you read those lyrics is because that song reminds me so much of a crush i've had for the longest time, and sad to say no matter how hard i try, i can't help but still have the slightest feelings for this same person. And trust me its not something i'm happy about because sometimes its so frustrating. You see, me and "this person" aren't really that close. But still we say we're "Friends" somewhat. It's hard to explain but i don't want to give out that many details, just in case they end up reading this, which in that case, would suck pretty bad. But anyways. i keep hearing from a few different people that there are other guys that like me, and yes of course that makes me happy, but after a while, if these guys dont make a move, i just end up still having small feelings for this same person. And while i know there's someone who likes me and i kind of like, its hard to get this other person out of my head. (And my complete apologies to everyone who's reading this and hasn't a clue as to what's going on, or is compeletely confused and has given up on trying to help, but please try to give me the best advice that you can, im really stuck and in need of the utmost help.)
Some would call it complete and total obsession but its not an obsession, see my definition of an obsession would be something that you give almost all of your attention too. And while i give this person attention, he's not someone i completely CANNOT keep my mind off of. It's just that certain songs or things of that sort REMIND me of this person. And yes sometimes, if i'm in a complete state of despair or depression then yes i tend to think about this person. But don't we all have those bouts? honestly its not a big deal. But as i was saying, i don't want to think of myself as "boy crazy" or that i "like every guy that i've come in contact with", no that's NOT true, and i don't want people saying that about me behind my back. It's just that this person was a pretty big crush to begin with, and some of my friends can relate to this, sometimes it's just hard to get over those really big crushes. And though the thought ever attempting to be with this person has pretty much died out of my mind, sometimes i just think about how i liked him so much before, and what not. And then i remember how much he hurt me and why would i ever want to be with someone like that. And what gives me the right to ever think he would WANT to be with ME. It's hard to read myself sometimes even, but basically what im trying to say is that i really dont know if i sitll like this person like i did before or not, and really i dont think i do or ever will again, because like they always say hurt me once shame on you hurt me twice shame on me, and trust me this person has hurt me plenty of times this year. I think it might be that udder physical attraction that i have to this person that keeps me thinking well maybe i will always kind of like this person even though i say ive moved on COMPETELY. And yet i feel i have moved on, because at this point there is someone that i find an interest in, but this person just sticks in the back of my mind.
im in need of some serious advice, please comment, you have no idea how much help im in need of right now.
ok, to some this will be pathetically obvious and to some others it won't be that obvious, but still the same to anyone who ends up reading this, please give your opinions, and if you have to comment anonymously then i guess you must but i need all the advice i can get.
Well, first off read these lyrics (I'll tell you why afterwards):
Have You Ever?
Brandy
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do anything to look in their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get in your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep
The reason i had you read those lyrics is because that song reminds me so much of a crush i've had for the longest time, and sad to say no matter how hard i try, i can't help but still have the slightest feelings for this same person. And trust me its not something i'm happy about because sometimes its so frustrating. You see, me and "this person" aren't really that close. But still we say we're "Friends" somewhat. It's hard to explain but i don't want to give out that many details, just in case they end up reading this, which in that case, would suck pretty bad. But anyways. i keep hearing from a few different people that there are other guys that like me, and yes of course that makes me happy, but after a while, if these guys dont make a move, i just end up still having small feelings for this same person. And while i know there's someone who likes me and i kind of like, its hard to get this other person out of my head. (And my complete apologies to everyone who's reading this and hasn't a clue as to what's going on, or is compeletely confused and has given up on trying to help, but please try to give me the best advice that you can, im really stuck and in need of the utmost help.)
Some would call it complete and total obsession but its not an obsession, see my definition of an obsession would be something that you give almost all of your attention too. And while i give this person attention, he's not someone i completely CANNOT keep my mind off of. It's just that certain songs or things of that sort REMIND me of this person. And yes sometimes, if i'm in a complete state of despair or depression then yes i tend to think about this person. But don't we all have those bouts? honestly its not a big deal. But as i was saying, i don't want to think of myself as "boy crazy" or that i "like every guy that i've come in contact with", no that's NOT true, and i don't want people saying that about me behind my back. It's just that this person was a pretty big crush to begin with, and some of my friends can relate to this, sometimes it's just hard to get over those really big crushes. And though the thought ever attempting to be with this person has pretty much died out of my mind, sometimes i just think about how i liked him so much before, and what not. And then i remember how much he hurt me and why would i ever want to be with someone like that. And what gives me the right to ever think he would WANT to be with ME. It's hard to read myself sometimes even, but basically what im trying to say is that i really dont know if i sitll like this person like i did before or not, and really i dont think i do or ever will again, because like they always say hurt me once shame on you hurt me twice shame on me, and trust me this person has hurt me plenty of times this year. I think it might be that udder physical attraction that i have to this person that keeps me thinking well maybe i will always kind of like this person even though i say ive moved on COMPETELY. And yet i feel i have moved on, because at this point there is someone that i find an interest in, but this person just sticks in the back of my mind.
im in need of some serious advice, please comment, you have no idea how much help im in need of right now.