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Yea, I know it's only been like an hour since I updated but you're going to have to deal with it.
I was looking back on my journal and reading some of my old entries.
I used to write about interesting things, about thoughts and ideas I had, now all I do is write about my day and things that have happened.
The difference is sickening. I want to have deep thoughts and off the wall ideas again. But, I want to do it becuase it's the way I am, not because I'm forcing it on myself. I still have those abstract thoughts floating arond somewhere in my head, I just got to let them out again.
Last year was insane. A good type of insanity. I feel like I am missing out on alot of stuff this year.
I miss the old days too, but I love the way things are right now. But, I still miss the way we all used to be, I think we all do.
But, life is being really good to me right now and I don't want to screw that up. I have awesome friends, an amazing girlfriend, and a (fairly well) paying job.
I love, very very passionatly.
Ryan.
I was looking back on my journal and reading some of my old entries.
I used to write about interesting things, about thoughts and ideas I had, now all I do is write about my day and things that have happened.
The difference is sickening. I want to have deep thoughts and off the wall ideas again. But, I want to do it becuase it's the way I am, not because I'm forcing it on myself. I still have those abstract thoughts floating arond somewhere in my head, I just got to let them out again.
Last year was insane. A good type of insanity. I feel like I am missing out on alot of stuff this year.
I miss the old days too, but I love the way things are right now. But, I still miss the way we all used to be, I think we all do.
But, life is being really good to me right now and I don't want to screw that up. I have awesome friends, an amazing girlfriend, and a (fairly well) paying job.
I love, very very passionatly.
Ryan.