diving into the past...

[majickstardust]

sooo.... since i've been back at my parents house i've been going through all my old stuff. looking at pictures. anywaysss.... i found some poetry i wrote my freshman year of university.



this one didn't have a title

if things continue this way
i don't know what to say
except i don't think i can trust anymore
where is the one i used to adore?
under the stars where we used to meet
feeling the friction of sand beneth my feet
and thinking back to the way things were
when our love was perfectly pure
what even happened on that perfect summer day?
what did i do to make your love fade away
and turn to something ugly and torn?
every look you give, i just can't stand anymore

i thought it was kind of weird. i wrote that a year before i started dating chris and find the lines "what even happened on that perfect summer day? what did i do to make your love fade away and turn to something ugly and torn" so eeirly ironic because of the way he broke up with me.

hold

i want someone to hold
and to hold me
wrap their arms around me
and never let go
who will stay and lay all night and day
and feel the feeling
wishing upon astar that i will find someone
and let them know
i want someone to hold

i thought that one was kind of cute. cheesy but cute.

lol. i just found my philo. binder. some of the best doodles of my life were done in that class. "i wish my thorat would stop itching and my head would stop aching and my heart would stop beating and my lungs would stop breathing" good times good times.

good times good times

i'm really nervous about my surgery tomorrow!