My day...
Yesterday I surprised myself by not being depressed at Valentine's Day and not doing anything special for it. Maybe it's just because I didn't stop to think about it long enough, but all in all I really had a good day yesterday.
Today however, has sucked majorly. As angsty as it sounds today it feels like the whole world has turned against me. First, I'm talking with one of the customers, and really when I strike up this witty banter I don't think about what I'm saying...however they happen to respond, my mind follows and I just let whatever crap comes out flow out of my mouth. Think of it as controlled diahrea of the mouth. :-P Well this one lady said "Yeah my husband is sick he just got out of the hospital." And immediately, I went to the person closest to me who is currently going to a hospital on a regular basis. My dad. I managed to keep my composure for the rest of the conversation, but for the next 30 minutes or so it was a very conscious act of will to keep my friendly mask on. Most days it's not an act because I enjoy what I do...
Then about the time I regained control of myself after that upset..I'm loading a lady's car, and the basket is up on the curb. Well I go to get some heavy ass water out of the basket to put in the front seat and most everything else has gone in the back. Well as I turn, I guess my leg bumped the cart just a little (that's the only thing I can think of that happened) and the cart fell onto the car and left a mark. Now, I'm not talking about a scratch, really it was a ding, maybe an inch long. Well she flipped out, (with good reason..not saying she shouldn't have...but it WAS an accident) and called the manager. I gave him my side of the story, and he more or less gave me the impression that if I let it happen again that was my job. Now I'm not making light of the matter and saying he shouldn't have, or the lady shouldn't have been upset...but on top of the first occurence...my day didn't go so well.
In fact, I don't really want to do anything but curl up in the corner of my bed and sleep till next week sometime and hope in that time the world explodes or something.
Just having one of those days...
Kaelas
Today however, has sucked majorly. As angsty as it sounds today it feels like the whole world has turned against me. First, I'm talking with one of the customers, and really when I strike up this witty banter I don't think about what I'm saying...however they happen to respond, my mind follows and I just let whatever crap comes out flow out of my mouth. Think of it as controlled diahrea of the mouth. :-P Well this one lady said "Yeah my husband is sick he just got out of the hospital." And immediately, I went to the person closest to me who is currently going to a hospital on a regular basis. My dad. I managed to keep my composure for the rest of the conversation, but for the next 30 minutes or so it was a very conscious act of will to keep my friendly mask on. Most days it's not an act because I enjoy what I do...
Then about the time I regained control of myself after that upset..I'm loading a lady's car, and the basket is up on the curb. Well I go to get some heavy ass water out of the basket to put in the front seat and most everything else has gone in the back. Well as I turn, I guess my leg bumped the cart just a little (that's the only thing I can think of that happened) and the cart fell onto the car and left a mark. Now, I'm not talking about a scratch, really it was a ding, maybe an inch long. Well she flipped out, (with good reason..not saying she shouldn't have...but it WAS an accident) and called the manager. I gave him my side of the story, and he more or less gave me the impression that if I let it happen again that was my job. Now I'm not making light of the matter and saying he shouldn't have, or the lady shouldn't have been upset...but on top of the first occurence...my day didn't go so well.
In fact, I don't really want to do anything but curl up in the corner of my bed and sleep till next week sometime and hope in that time the world explodes or something.
Just having one of those days...
Kaelas