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So after smoking 2g tonight, I went to bed early because I have a final tomorrow. Long story short, I had a major life revelation while listening to a GooGooDolls song while trying to fall alseep, during which times my mind roams and I get existential. So I got up and came and wrote it all down, but then I something went wrong and when I hit the backspace key it loaded the previous page and wiped out my description of my perfect life. And I have an amazing love songs playlist on that I haven't listened to in a long time. Lots of songs gathered from my childhood and teenage years that I always loved.
Here's what I can salvage of my perfect life (hopefully this isn't metaphorical):
I want to graduate college with my film degree and move to San Francisco. I've never been to Cali before, and I've lived most of my live on the east coast. I've heard San Francisco is a better place for film than LA, so I want to go there. Then I want to find some suburb with a nearby downtown area and get an apartment. I want to live life as a film guy/hipster, learn to play my guitar better, build upon my artistic abilities on the side (I can paint a bit, I love photoshop and illustrator, and I'm an intermediate jeweler by hobby). I want to make friends with the neighbors and maybe join some online communities and meet some other people in the area, maybe get involved in some community stuff, hang out with a group of friends around my age range, have some inside jokes, nights out, dinner parties, and maybe a romantic interest, especially because I've never yet had a girlfriend. I want to live a good, fulfilling life. That'll all change eventually, of course, but that's what I think I want to do with most of my third decade after college.
I smoked for the last time in a fair while tonight. No smoking over the summer. Have to get in shape.
I have a final tomorrow that may or may not make life for me over the next few months extremely difficult. Then I go home. I just really hope things work out.
Here's what I can salvage of my perfect life (hopefully this isn't metaphorical):
I want to graduate college with my film degree and move to San Francisco. I've never been to Cali before, and I've lived most of my live on the east coast. I've heard San Francisco is a better place for film than LA, so I want to go there. Then I want to find some suburb with a nearby downtown area and get an apartment. I want to live life as a film guy/hipster, learn to play my guitar better, build upon my artistic abilities on the side (I can paint a bit, I love photoshop and illustrator, and I'm an intermediate jeweler by hobby). I want to make friends with the neighbors and maybe join some online communities and meet some other people in the area, maybe get involved in some community stuff, hang out with a group of friends around my age range, have some inside jokes, nights out, dinner parties, and maybe a romantic interest, especially because I've never yet had a girlfriend. I want to live a good, fulfilling life. That'll all change eventually, of course, but that's what I think I want to do with most of my third decade after college.
I smoked for the last time in a fair while tonight. No smoking over the summer. Have to get in shape.
I have a final tomorrow that may or may not make life for me over the next few months extremely difficult. Then I go home. I just really hope things work out.