frustration
joy is right. i probably will go through my senior year without any friends. cant be upset i brought it on myself and i'm sure no one will dissagree. to joy i was out of line and deserve whatever i get seek revenge how you see fit. i wouldn't blame you a bit. i really should learn not to react to things while trying to deal with a year's worth of pent up frustration and exaustion. i am glad though it will only be a year . i'm sure most of you are too haha. i do realise that most of you really never were comfortable with me and basically were just polite enough to put up with me, which i do appreciate but you shouldn't have to. in regards to my boyfreind i don't comdem his actions, i'm as frustrated as most of you are but for different reasons which i wont say here. though one of my last request is don't take out your frustrations with him out on me. i have no control over his actions. if you have a problem with me feel free to let me know but i'm not kendricks keeper and will never be able to tell him how to act or what to do. joy is right again we really are an odd pair but i do love him and that's enough for me. it actually has to be. sab i don;t expect forgiveness i don't deserve it. joy i expect you to be bluntly honest and probably hurt me more than once next year but i'm prepared for that. julie i do apologise to you for being overbearing. it is your job and i respect that and wouldnt want to compromise that because i know you have worked harder than anyone else to get that. god give me strength i'm gonna need it.