It has been awhile.
I do not know why I do not write in this journal more often. No one knows I have this one, except for Lukey. And well I love him. So it really doesn't matter if he reads what I do not want most to read.
Life has become somewhat complicated. I moved two hours away from home. I really did not think I would miss home as much. But I am definitely homesick. It is getting tough to get pass. There has definitely been a couple of days where I just wanted to pack up and go home. I did pack up.. but I never made it home. Mostly due to the fact that I am not for sure if my mom wants to see me, and I did not have the gas money to make it home. I really hope things work out, and that I did not make some mistake.
Fear has controlled most of my life, and I am trying to break through and live for once... and it scares the shit out of me.
Which is worse living in fear, or fearing the life you live? Does that even make sense? I am not even for sure. I will need to ask a few friends about that. Interesting.
I really do need to start using my live journal more. It may become a very useful thing, seeing that I do not have to worry about anyone reading it. I do not have to sensor it.
Oh well, that is all for now.
Love ya
Anna
Life has become somewhat complicated. I moved two hours away from home. I really did not think I would miss home as much. But I am definitely homesick. It is getting tough to get pass. There has definitely been a couple of days where I just wanted to pack up and go home. I did pack up.. but I never made it home. Mostly due to the fact that I am not for sure if my mom wants to see me, and I did not have the gas money to make it home. I really hope things work out, and that I did not make some mistake.
Fear has controlled most of my life, and I am trying to break through and live for once... and it scares the shit out of me.
Which is worse living in fear, or fearing the life you live? Does that even make sense? I am not even for sure. I will need to ask a few friends about that. Interesting.
I really do need to start using my live journal more. It may become a very useful thing, seeing that I do not have to worry about anyone reading it. I do not have to sensor it.
Oh well, that is all for now.
Love ya
Anna