the things that are supposed to be simple make life difficult
so i apparently suck really badly at painting.
really badly.
But i'll figure it out. I'll learn. If nothing else, just to prove to myself that i can. I don't like feeling like a failure, and I'm not going to let something like painting houses do that to me. It really bothers me that im not automatically good at it, but i can't be good at everytyhing the first time i start at it, right? it's just frustrating, though. I look around at everyone else at my crew and they're really good at this, especially compared to me, and we all have basically the same experience. Being the only girl on the team, I feel like I'm letting down all of girlkind by being bad at this. Which is rediculous. But still, I hate being bad at something that everyone around me is good at. It's like i missed the boat somewhere that gave people good skills at this. I was (am) really struggling with this, but david calmed me down a little bit about it by basically telling me that while i can't be good at everything i try right off the bat, , i can learn to be better, and he challenged me to stick it out jsut to prove to myself i could. I was so close to quitting. So close. I dont want to be a dissappointment; i know people are counting on me to do a good job, and if i cant provide one i shouldn't bother. But David was right. I have to prove this to myself, that I can do this and i don't need to keep second guessing myself.
So
I'll get better.
really badly.
But i'll figure it out. I'll learn. If nothing else, just to prove to myself that i can. I don't like feeling like a failure, and I'm not going to let something like painting houses do that to me. It really bothers me that im not automatically good at it, but i can't be good at everytyhing the first time i start at it, right? it's just frustrating, though. I look around at everyone else at my crew and they're really good at this, especially compared to me, and we all have basically the same experience. Being the only girl on the team, I feel like I'm letting down all of girlkind by being bad at this. Which is rediculous. But still, I hate being bad at something that everyone around me is good at. It's like i missed the boat somewhere that gave people good skills at this. I was (am) really struggling with this, but david calmed me down a little bit about it by basically telling me that while i can't be good at everything i try right off the bat, , i can learn to be better, and he challenged me to stick it out jsut to prove to myself i could. I was so close to quitting. So close. I dont want to be a dissappointment; i know people are counting on me to do a good job, and if i cant provide one i shouldn't bother. But David was right. I have to prove this to myself, that I can do this and i don't need to keep second guessing myself.
So
I'll get better.