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I've been staring at pictures of Kate Winslet from Eternal Sunshine for the past hour inbetween pausing the movie and rewatching my favorite scenes. Sometimes I get in moods where it's all I can do to pry myself away from the remote control and develop my mind in ways better than a television can ever do. Did she have to dye her real hair in the movie or was it a wig? I think I'll be disappointed if it was a wig, maybe it's better if you don't tell me. I think she is as beautiful as she's ever been in this movie, even though I guess 75% of that is a character. As an actress you think I'd be able to differentiate and be extremely jaded towards movies but I can't help but fall in love with Clementine a million times over each time I re-watch this. And anyone who thinks Garden State was better or is even comparable, well, you can fuck right off because that movie fucking sucked. Well, it didn't suck but it has no comparison at ALL to the beauty that is Joel Barish and Clementine. NONE AT ALL. Plus, I could barely make myself keep watching it because Natalie Portman's character was so fucking annoying. I think that's mostly because I can't stand lies and lying in general, and well, pathelogical liars are pretty much my worst pet peeve ever. At least Clementine had to guts to be fucked up, Natalie's character (I can't even bother myself to look up the name of her, that's how not comparable the movie is) hid behind story after story after story. I can't STAND people who do that, I cannot STAND when people can't just be honest, on a general note, because it's so fucking STUPID to make up elaborate lies. Is your life that pathetic and boring that you can't even admit to the simplicities? I guess so. Well, stay away from me, thanks. I don't need the bullshit that comes along with unfolding someone's lies that you thought you knew. I suppose at least I should find solace in the fact that the ones who choose to lie so much are in fact just 100% selfish and are not thinking of anyone BUT themselves (coindentally this is why they're so obsessed they have to make up entire lives), so it's not me, it's definitely them. It's just frustrating that people can be so fucking inconsiderate.
Wow, now there's another story for another day.
I've been keeping busy with projects up the wazoo. Trying to stay away from the If You're Bored You're Boring dilemma by filling my day with involved crafts or even just a stack of movies to watch or small errands to run. I feel quiet lately, like there isn't anything to say or maybe I just enjoy the silence. Our days are painfully relaxed lately, Jason sitting up on the couch while I lay with my head in his lap. There is something infinitely calming about the way he brushes his fingertips through my hair, not even completely (usually because it's such a goddamn mess that he can't get them through hahaha), just from my temples to my ear, and we watch movies for hours like this. Or else he'll read something and I'll take a nap. I love every second he's next to me. And every moment that he's not, I wonder what he's doing or what he's thinking and if he's wondering the same things about me. If I'm away for some reason at work or what have you, I wonder if he's getting lunch (though I know that he's mooching off his mom, as well he should, and bring leftovers) and what he's doing. I picture him laughing at the comedy channel that is so present on the cable at all times. It's so good knowing someone inside and out. It's so good when someone knows YOU inside out. I can't wait to marry this man.
Am I the only one who doesn't find Family Guy the second coming of Christ?
Happy birthday, Jonathan. A small something is on it's way to you if it hasn't arrived already.
Wow, now there's another story for another day.
I've been keeping busy with projects up the wazoo. Trying to stay away from the If You're Bored You're Boring dilemma by filling my day with involved crafts or even just a stack of movies to watch or small errands to run. I feel quiet lately, like there isn't anything to say or maybe I just enjoy the silence. Our days are painfully relaxed lately, Jason sitting up on the couch while I lay with my head in his lap. There is something infinitely calming about the way he brushes his fingertips through my hair, not even completely (usually because it's such a goddamn mess that he can't get them through hahaha), just from my temples to my ear, and we watch movies for hours like this. Or else he'll read something and I'll take a nap. I love every second he's next to me. And every moment that he's not, I wonder what he's doing or what he's thinking and if he's wondering the same things about me. If I'm away for some reason at work or what have you, I wonder if he's getting lunch (though I know that he's mooching off his mom, as well he should, and bring leftovers) and what he's doing. I picture him laughing at the comedy channel that is so present on the cable at all times. It's so good knowing someone inside and out. It's so good when someone knows YOU inside out. I can't wait to marry this man.
Am I the only one who doesn't find Family Guy the second coming of Christ?
Happy birthday, Jonathan. A small something is on it's way to you if it hasn't arrived already.