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you know how sometimes things come back to haunt you? not even something you did. something someone else did to you, maybe even unintentionlly. then someone has to say something to remind you of that shitty incident. I HATE that. we all know that life is full of experiences- good and bad. sometimes people forgive the bad things because they can or never forget them because they can't. Most of the bad are supreficially painful, easily brushed off, easily forgotten. but sometimes the bad penetrate the emotional barriers of the soul and refuse to be let back out- the pain haunts you in the back of your mind, usually hidden but easily recovered.
personally, most of my life was smooth sailing. i can only remember about three or four things that have affected me in a deep way and only one that still hurts when i hear about it. well GO FIGURE, someone has to tell me something today about that one thing that i just did NOT want to find out. UGGGHHH. then i had to think about the stupid thing all day and be in a bad mood because no one can deny the fact that forgetting isn't as easy as it sounds. what makes it worse is that the past is what it is- we can't change it, or erase it, or make it any less true. it unchagably and eternally exists, its memory set in stone. even if it sucks.
i need a beer...or 2...or 5.
personally, most of my life was smooth sailing. i can only remember about three or four things that have affected me in a deep way and only one that still hurts when i hear about it. well GO FIGURE, someone has to tell me something today about that one thing that i just did NOT want to find out. UGGGHHH. then i had to think about the stupid thing all day and be in a bad mood because no one can deny the fact that forgetting isn't as easy as it sounds. what makes it worse is that the past is what it is- we can't change it, or erase it, or make it any less true. it unchagably and eternally exists, its memory set in stone. even if it sucks.
i need a beer...or 2...or 5.