Hello
Hello livejournal, been a while. Hope everyone had a great holiday, whatever you celebrate. My Christmas was nice. My roommates went kind of crazy for me because it's my first Christmas away from my family. It was very sweet. They rock my socks.
I have ended things completely with Krysta and am now dating a wonderful woman named Desiree. It's very odd because I was completely focused on Krysta for 2 years and now she doesn't want anything to do with me at all in any context. That's painful, but I had to move on from that situation because I was just walking in circles with her and I got too tired. I hate that she can't just understand that and be okay with it, it's not like she's not moved on before. It's not like she's not done A LOT of fucked up shit to me so I have no reason to really feel bad. I told her before I started dating Des. I did it as honestly as I could and it was like stabbing myself in the foot, but it had to be done. I know her though and I know she's mad because I'm not waiting on her anymore. She treated me like a toy that she would occassionally play with and then toss aside, but as soon as someone else wanted to play with me she would be interested again. I can't be that for her anymore. I would love to be her friend at some point eventually if she can deal with that, but if she can't I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Her loss.
Desiree is great though. She's an actual adult and that's a nice change of pace. My friends (even the ones I met through Krysta) love her and are ecstatic that I'm dating her. She can actually have a disagreement without screaming fuck you and walking away. It's very odd the things that surprise me with her. She offered to go get my drink from another room and that seriously just shocked me. No one's offered to do anything small like that for me in quite a while. It's nice. Plus, she's got her shit together and knows what she wants. And right now she really wants me so I'm just going with it.
Still working the same job, getting yelled at everyday by stupid people, but it pays the bills. Not much else has changed with me. I'm not that exciting. I don't go out much anymore. I'm actually starting to go a little stir crazy, so I think I should go out sometime soon though. :op
Don't know what else to write. Need to go to the store and buy toilet paper. It's insane how often I forget to buy toilet paper. It's the little things you take for granted when you don't supply things for yourself. :op
*LOVE*
I have ended things completely with Krysta and am now dating a wonderful woman named Desiree. It's very odd because I was completely focused on Krysta for 2 years and now she doesn't want anything to do with me at all in any context. That's painful, but I had to move on from that situation because I was just walking in circles with her and I got too tired. I hate that she can't just understand that and be okay with it, it's not like she's not moved on before. It's not like she's not done A LOT of fucked up shit to me so I have no reason to really feel bad. I told her before I started dating Des. I did it as honestly as I could and it was like stabbing myself in the foot, but it had to be done. I know her though and I know she's mad because I'm not waiting on her anymore. She treated me like a toy that she would occassionally play with and then toss aside, but as soon as someone else wanted to play with me she would be interested again. I can't be that for her anymore. I would love to be her friend at some point eventually if she can deal with that, but if she can't I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Her loss.
Desiree is great though. She's an actual adult and that's a nice change of pace. My friends (even the ones I met through Krysta) love her and are ecstatic that I'm dating her. She can actually have a disagreement without screaming fuck you and walking away. It's very odd the things that surprise me with her. She offered to go get my drink from another room and that seriously just shocked me. No one's offered to do anything small like that for me in quite a while. It's nice. Plus, she's got her shit together and knows what she wants. And right now she really wants me so I'm just going with it.
Still working the same job, getting yelled at everyday by stupid people, but it pays the bills. Not much else has changed with me. I'm not that exciting. I don't go out much anymore. I'm actually starting to go a little stir crazy, so I think I should go out sometime soon though. :op
Don't know what else to write. Need to go to the store and buy toilet paper. It's insane how often I forget to buy toilet paper. It's the little things you take for granted when you don't supply things for yourself. :op
*LOVE*