Updating Maile's Life
WOW...I have so much to say but I don't know where to start. That's nothing new to you guys but it always feels new to me.
Amber~
I had fun with you on Saturday even though the time went by kinda fast. I knew that you had other things on your mind that night so I didn't expect you to stay forever. I could tell that you really wanted to go see Jessica, but was enjoying being around all of my family again like before. It was a little hectic around my house that night, but when is it ever not?!
But I just want to ask you this, are yo uupset at me for something? I really don't have a reason why I feel this way, but it's almost like I feel it...like something still harbors over us because everything wasn't let out in the open. If it's not anything like I am thinking please tell me so I will stop thinking that, but if it is like what I am thinking, tell me that too.
How I feel right now is I just want to sit with you and talk about everything...everything. Like what it's like at Mason, Brett, Corey, Ayden, commuting, sleeping, dreaming, eating, colors, shapes, I DON"T CARE!!! haha I just feel the need to spill everything that I have been wanting to talk about with someone to you and just hope hat you want to do the same too. It's almost like I just want you for myself and hog you all up!! haha that is true but at the same time I don't want to do that. You have your own life now and I do too. You are still young and can make those fun memories that you want to. I guess it's just me trying to adapt to not being a part of everything you do now that I am back in your life...it was hard to do when I wasn't a part of your life yet easy at the same time. I'm used to us being attached to the hip (haha) but I'm accepting that we have our own seperate lives that we do our own seperate things.
I just love you girl and I don't want to let go...ever. I want to talk to you more like we used to but I know it's hard with our lifestyles and that's okay. Just tell me if I'm right or if I'm wrong. Talk to me girl!! hahahaha I meant that sarcastically:) but nah, I do love you and I just want you to remeber that.
Mike~
I had a great conversation with him the other day. At times like that I remember that he is okay and taking care of himself. I just worry about him and he knows that. It felt so good to talk to him again like we used to. He told me things that no one else knows and that's special. Some things I don't want to know (haha) but we joke about it:) He's just great and I miss him. I love him as well too:) Words Just can't describe how I feel right now..
John~
The boy is a trip!! I know that he had fun on Saturday while everyone else lokked in disgust. Needless to say he hung with her again and what not. It's nice to have him back but at the same time, it's like "Did you grown up any?" It's still the same John that was here before he left to go to Iraq. You would think that the military would change your outlook on things even your life some, but he is still the same. Still rude as hell to his family except his dad, who isn't there for anything that I can account for. His sister and mom helped put this thing together and he shits oin them by disrepecting them in fron of their faces. Not to mention he pissed his brother off... I know that he was sick and couldn't come, so John prolly pulled the "I just came back from Iraq and you have to make an effort to come see me" thing just like he did when a group of his friends came to see him at my house. He wants to feel important to EVERYONE. He knows his place in my family, but he doesn't know his place with his friends. The people who he keeps in touch with don't always keep back in touch with him. That's where he needs to realize who his friends are and who are just aquaintainces, just like Highschool. It's sad, but I love John, even when he is an asshole and knows it, a smartass, a sweetheart, a butthead, a cuddle guy, everything. He's like another brother, minus his assholeness a lot of the time:) Gotta love that guy ven when he does the stupidest things:)
Corey~
We got into another argument on Sunday. I stayed at my mom and he left to go to his house. I decided that I am going to pick and choose my battles with him like you have to do a child. The next day when he called me I just acted like nothing happened like he does. The funny part of it all is that we really switched roles and I hope that he understands what it's like in my shoes now (knock on wood). Usually I am the one who is so mad that I can't do ANYTHING. Everything becomes frustrating so I choose eto go to sleep, but even that I can't do and I become wrestless and throw blankets and pillows and then I end up waking up early the next morning. And usually he is the one that brushes it off like everything else, because he knows that will make me even more mad and he gets the good night sleep and sleep in the next morning and be okay the next day and not want to talk about it. WELL WHAT DO YOU KNOW?? He was me and I was him. And he even wanted to talk about it the next day when we took Ayden for a ride. Ihad nothing much to say, just like he would've and it felt great!! So I brought myself to the conclusion that I am picking and choosing my battles with him, because half of them aren't worth arguing over. But I love him even when he is an asshole too and won't listen, but I know he loves me too when I can be a bitch. That's love:) haha
The other news I have is that my friends Dad, who I have grown up with literally, is in the hospital. He just had his heart bypass surgery yesterday and as a result of that the doctors found a blood clot. Kinda like when your drain is clogged and you unclog it, the clog has to go somewhere right? That's what it's like. Well they couldn't control the beelding for hours and then finally they got it. They told his wife that they did everything they could, and now it's up to him and his body to fight. I just prayed some more and all I could do was reminice because that family means a lot to us. He just got to see his granddaughter Abigail Christine Potts born, has a teenage daughter that has bloomed into a beautiful woman and 2 twin boys that are to live for. And of course a wife that has so much love and supposrt for him. I just really hope that his body fights and pulls through...for him and for his family and loved ones...we all need him. My mom stayed up there all last night and didn't come home til 8ish this morning. She's hurting right now too, because they were there for us when my dad passed away, and we don't want their family to go through what we went through. And his wife is just a miracle for my mom...she really means the world to my mom...I'm going to talk to her some more later today about this, so I am kept informed. I'll prolly go see them at the hospital the next time my mom goes.
So that's the update on my life right now, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'll have more things to say later but Ayden his playing around with Corey's guitar and I need to go get him! Latas:)
Amber~
I had fun with you on Saturday even though the time went by kinda fast. I knew that you had other things on your mind that night so I didn't expect you to stay forever. I could tell that you really wanted to go see Jessica, but was enjoying being around all of my family again like before. It was a little hectic around my house that night, but when is it ever not?!
But I just want to ask you this, are yo uupset at me for something? I really don't have a reason why I feel this way, but it's almost like I feel it...like something still harbors over us because everything wasn't let out in the open. If it's not anything like I am thinking please tell me so I will stop thinking that, but if it is like what I am thinking, tell me that too.
How I feel right now is I just want to sit with you and talk about everything...everything. Like what it's like at Mason, Brett, Corey, Ayden, commuting, sleeping, dreaming, eating, colors, shapes, I DON"T CARE!!! haha I just feel the need to spill everything that I have been wanting to talk about with someone to you and just hope hat you want to do the same too. It's almost like I just want you for myself and hog you all up!! haha that is true but at the same time I don't want to do that. You have your own life now and I do too. You are still young and can make those fun memories that you want to. I guess it's just me trying to adapt to not being a part of everything you do now that I am back in your life...it was hard to do when I wasn't a part of your life yet easy at the same time. I'm used to us being attached to the hip (haha) but I'm accepting that we have our own seperate lives that we do our own seperate things.
I just love you girl and I don't want to let go...ever. I want to talk to you more like we used to but I know it's hard with our lifestyles and that's okay. Just tell me if I'm right or if I'm wrong. Talk to me girl!! hahahaha I meant that sarcastically:) but nah, I do love you and I just want you to remeber that.
Mike~
I had a great conversation with him the other day. At times like that I remember that he is okay and taking care of himself. I just worry about him and he knows that. It felt so good to talk to him again like we used to. He told me things that no one else knows and that's special. Some things I don't want to know (haha) but we joke about it:) He's just great and I miss him. I love him as well too:) Words Just can't describe how I feel right now..
John~
The boy is a trip!! I know that he had fun on Saturday while everyone else lokked in disgust. Needless to say he hung with her again and what not. It's nice to have him back but at the same time, it's like "Did you grown up any?" It's still the same John that was here before he left to go to Iraq. You would think that the military would change your outlook on things even your life some, but he is still the same. Still rude as hell to his family except his dad, who isn't there for anything that I can account for. His sister and mom helped put this thing together and he shits oin them by disrepecting them in fron of their faces. Not to mention he pissed his brother off... I know that he was sick and couldn't come, so John prolly pulled the "I just came back from Iraq and you have to make an effort to come see me" thing just like he did when a group of his friends came to see him at my house. He wants to feel important to EVERYONE. He knows his place in my family, but he doesn't know his place with his friends. The people who he keeps in touch with don't always keep back in touch with him. That's where he needs to realize who his friends are and who are just aquaintainces, just like Highschool. It's sad, but I love John, even when he is an asshole and knows it, a smartass, a sweetheart, a butthead, a cuddle guy, everything. He's like another brother, minus his assholeness a lot of the time:) Gotta love that guy ven when he does the stupidest things:)
Corey~
We got into another argument on Sunday. I stayed at my mom and he left to go to his house. I decided that I am going to pick and choose my battles with him like you have to do a child. The next day when he called me I just acted like nothing happened like he does. The funny part of it all is that we really switched roles and I hope that he understands what it's like in my shoes now (knock on wood). Usually I am the one who is so mad that I can't do ANYTHING. Everything becomes frustrating so I choose eto go to sleep, but even that I can't do and I become wrestless and throw blankets and pillows and then I end up waking up early the next morning. And usually he is the one that brushes it off like everything else, because he knows that will make me even more mad and he gets the good night sleep and sleep in the next morning and be okay the next day and not want to talk about it. WELL WHAT DO YOU KNOW?? He was me and I was him. And he even wanted to talk about it the next day when we took Ayden for a ride. Ihad nothing much to say, just like he would've and it felt great!! So I brought myself to the conclusion that I am picking and choosing my battles with him, because half of them aren't worth arguing over. But I love him even when he is an asshole too and won't listen, but I know he loves me too when I can be a bitch. That's love:) haha
The other news I have is that my friends Dad, who I have grown up with literally, is in the hospital. He just had his heart bypass surgery yesterday and as a result of that the doctors found a blood clot. Kinda like when your drain is clogged and you unclog it, the clog has to go somewhere right? That's what it's like. Well they couldn't control the beelding for hours and then finally they got it. They told his wife that they did everything they could, and now it's up to him and his body to fight. I just prayed some more and all I could do was reminice because that family means a lot to us. He just got to see his granddaughter Abigail Christine Potts born, has a teenage daughter that has bloomed into a beautiful woman and 2 twin boys that are to live for. And of course a wife that has so much love and supposrt for him. I just really hope that his body fights and pulls through...for him and for his family and loved ones...we all need him. My mom stayed up there all last night and didn't come home til 8ish this morning. She's hurting right now too, because they were there for us when my dad passed away, and we don't want their family to go through what we went through. And his wife is just a miracle for my mom...she really means the world to my mom...I'm going to talk to her some more later today about this, so I am kept informed. I'll prolly go see them at the hospital the next time my mom goes.
So that's the update on my life right now, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'll have more things to say later but Ayden his playing around with Corey's guitar and I need to go get him! Latas:)