I'm Still Under The Weather, but I'm Over The Storm
Yesterday..I did something nice for someone. I know i didn't have to. I knew i wouldn't get anything out of it. Thats cool.. its just i wonder if it made a difference to that person. That is the point of the whole concept of giving unselfishly. I think it would be kinda silly if that person got nothing out of it. Ill never know.
Matt is amazing. I love venting to him. He understands what im talkin about. We were talking about how lately ive felt like somethings missing. I want something. I just don't know what. I want whats missing whatever it may be. Since i dunno what it is i have no clue how to go about getting it. Ive done things for others lately without wanting anything back for it. I like doing that. It makes me happy. Im just kinda wondering if im overlooking maybe all the things i get in return? If i do get something back in return for the things i do im not recognizing it. Im thankful for everything i have but thats not really what im talking about. When i mean i missing getting something back I think its a feeling that i want back that im missing. Who knows?
I want to go shopping. Aly, Matt and I are going today after Matt gets off of work. Last night sucked so much for so many reasons im not even gonna get into it. Then theres this one kid that we hung out with that really pissed me off. He was being a prick and a liar. Geez i cant stand when people are like that. My advice to him is to stop lying to himself and wake up and smell the coffee. Its pretty bad when the person your going out with tells u when other guys invite her to cheat on him ThEn.. you still don't care and allow it to happen. There's a problem there buddy since you havent noticed.
Everything gets harder and easier at the same time as days go on.