Rather Be Bored Than Drunk
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Got drunk last night... again. I can faintly remember that I had given up on drinking the last time I got drunk. But since I can't remember it vividly, I got myself plastered or its equivalent effect on me.
Alcohol gives me... nothing good. It does get my inhibitions softened but since I am always in command and not the booze, drinking is just a waste. I get my heart racing. I can barely hear most probably because the alcohol dilates the blood vessels near or in my ear constricting the movement of my tympanum. Due to the higher than normal influx of blood to the head coupled with a dehydration, a migraine will always be present. Regurgitation is not that nice either.
So from now on, no more par-tays for me. I have a low threshold for pain. Although drinking more will increase my tolerance for alcohol and the pains it brings, I don't think nor want to experience those anymore. I guess one could call me a coward for trying to run away from the pains of life but whatever. It's my life.
I'm sad. Probably because I haven't got a decent night's sleep for quite a while. This makes some chemical imbalance in me. And also, I still haven't found a source for what I am looking for aside from what ever it is that I should really be concentrating on like getting a job and being productive.
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Got drunk last night... again. I can faintly remember that I had given up on drinking the last time I got drunk. But since I can't remember it vividly, I got myself plastered or its equivalent effect on me.
Alcohol gives me... nothing good. It does get my inhibitions softened but since I am always in command and not the booze, drinking is just a waste. I get my heart racing. I can barely hear most probably because the alcohol dilates the blood vessels near or in my ear constricting the movement of my tympanum. Due to the higher than normal influx of blood to the head coupled with a dehydration, a migraine will always be present. Regurgitation is not that nice either.
So from now on, no more par-tays for me. I have a low threshold for pain. Although drinking more will increase my tolerance for alcohol and the pains it brings, I don't think nor want to experience those anymore. I guess one could call me a coward for trying to run away from the pains of life but whatever. It's my life.
I'm sad. Probably because I haven't got a decent night's sleep for quite a while. This makes some chemical imbalance in me. And also, I still haven't found a source for what I am looking for aside from what ever it is that I should really be concentrating on like getting a job and being productive.
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