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I am so depressed.....I just got done bawling on the phone with Stefani. Is long story. Don't wanna talk bout it.... I feel like ...... there is no sense in effort to smash skulls, or be frustrated, or use force of hitting or throwing or something to hurt myself. Maybe cutting. But the effort seems to ....minor... I just feel apathetic.... I can't explain it but its like being in a fog and everything is going on you to hurt you and you don't care anymore so you just sit down in the fog and look around drearily.