retrospect
This may be the drugs talking but I'm feeling nostalgic. I really miss hanging out with people until odd hours of the morning and talking about life. I'm in a strange rut lately. I work and go to school and hang out with my love but things just aren't really going. I have a goal in mind in where i want to be in a few years but it's taking forever to get there. i know things aren't in my hands and that's such a strange concept to grasp. that i'm not in control. i don't like it. sunday was the year anniversary of steve's death. where the hell did that year go? it seems like just yesterday i heard about the crash and then found out that he died. i think the year anniversary of matt will be even more surreal just because of the connection we had. i'm looking at quitting my job and not working for a while. i'm really burned out. but then again, i really like shopping. a lot. and a few doctors at work have already told me that they'll write me letters of recommendation for schools and stuff. which is so awesome. i'm getting tired now. this is rambling. i'm sorry. tommorrow is dinner with ABBY! I can barely contain myself. i'm going to put on make up for her and everything. i'm THAT excited. FYI this is posted on myspace too. yeah. i'm lame.