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its times like these were i just feel like just another spoke in the wheel ppl,theres been alot of good things and alot of bad things, ive just been maskin the bad things with the good things but when im alone and start listenin to music, it gets me thinking drastically, i think about all the bad things when im alone, my poor papaw has lung cancer and i hope he makes it, dads leg has been hurting and he could be in a wheel chair anytime, which really scares me because he wont be able to do anytihng he wants to, this is what happens when im left alone i start thinkin, wat if life realy isnt all this good, it makes me think of all the sad times and then i get depressed and sad and im gettin there now, i hate being alone to myself to long , i hurt my self like sabbaths, "killing yourself to live" thats exactly wat we do, we go do all these drugs to get us high but then in the end were killing ourselves NO NAMES MENTIONED, sometimes when i get like this all i wanna do is sit here and wait for crissy to call or get on the computer, i think she may be asleep or just not wanting to talk which is kool but yea i wait for her and she helps drastically but when i dont have her it gets bad, which i think is wats gonna happen. i have to admit i am a big puss when it comes to sadness i CANT STAND IT it overwelms me no matter wat, first i get pissed then i get sad or the other eway around. but yea i feel so alone, like no ones here just my puppy. but im gonna go, i hope i dont get too bad : ( love you guys like i mentioned i feel like just another spoke in the fricken wheel
ilycmcwamhaiaw
Soul Bleed
NOW THAT I'M ALL ALONE
PAINFULLY AWARE
I'M STARTING TO FEEL THE COLD
KNOWING YOU'RE NOT THERE
CAUGHT SOMEWHERE BETWEEN MY FEARS AND
DREAMS
AND ALL I HAVE ARE DEMONS HERE FOR COMPANY
COME AND LOOK INSIDE, HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT
YOU SEE
AND IF YOU RUN AND HIDE, YOU'RE SCARED OF
WHAT IS ME
BIND MY IDLE HANDS, THEY ONLY CLAW AT ME
DROWN IN EMPTINESS, MY SOUL IS LEFT TO
BLEED
THROWING A SHADOW ON
EVERY THOUGHT I HAVE
KNOWING THAT SOMETHING'S GONE
ECHO'S IN MY HEAD
CAUGHT SOMEWHERE BETWEEN MY FEARS AND
DREAMS
AND ALL I HAVE ARE DEMONS HERE FOR COMPANY
COME AND LOOK INSIDE, HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT
YOU SEE
AND IF YOU RUN AND HIDE, YOU'RE SCARED OF
WHAT IS ME
BIND MY IDLE HANDS, THEY ONLY CLAW AT ME
DROWN IN EMPTINESS, MY SOUL IS LEFT TO
BLEED
good song you should download it
ilycmcwamhaiaw
Soul Bleed
NOW THAT I'M ALL ALONE
PAINFULLY AWARE
I'M STARTING TO FEEL THE COLD
KNOWING YOU'RE NOT THERE
CAUGHT SOMEWHERE BETWEEN MY FEARS AND
DREAMS
AND ALL I HAVE ARE DEMONS HERE FOR COMPANY
COME AND LOOK INSIDE, HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT
YOU SEE
AND IF YOU RUN AND HIDE, YOU'RE SCARED OF
WHAT IS ME
BIND MY IDLE HANDS, THEY ONLY CLAW AT ME
DROWN IN EMPTINESS, MY SOUL IS LEFT TO
BLEED
THROWING A SHADOW ON
EVERY THOUGHT I HAVE
KNOWING THAT SOMETHING'S GONE
ECHO'S IN MY HEAD
CAUGHT SOMEWHERE BETWEEN MY FEARS AND
DREAMS
AND ALL I HAVE ARE DEMONS HERE FOR COMPANY
COME AND LOOK INSIDE, HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT
YOU SEE
AND IF YOU RUN AND HIDE, YOU'RE SCARED OF
WHAT IS ME
BIND MY IDLE HANDS, THEY ONLY CLAW AT ME
DROWN IN EMPTINESS, MY SOUL IS LEFT TO
BLEED
good song you should download it